Scribbles of a Lazy Geek!

Yes ... Chabbi Janvary again :)

2012-01-27T00:15:00.000+05:30

So, if you wonder what is so special about this day,apart from the fact that it is the Republic Day of India, that I religiouslytry to write a post about this day every year – then let me clear a few doubtsthis ‘Chabbi Janvary’.

‘Chabbi janvary’ is how we pronounce ‘26 January’ inPunjabi. The first time I wrote the ‘Aa gayi Chabbi Janvary’ post (in 2006), itwas just a post with a title which I thought sounded funny when written- it’sok, now even I know that it aint funny. The second Year – well, I somehow justremembered that I had written a post at this time of the year, in the previousyear – so, I titled it ‘Aa Gayi Chabbi Janvary firse’ (It’s 26 January again).The third year, I forgot to write on this day. I again remembered it in 2009,and titled the post as ‘Aa Gayi Chabbi janavary … is baar 2 saal baad’ (i.e.after 2 years). In 2010, I had again forgotten, but Amitesh reminded me of writingit .. only then it struck me that, people actually remember that I write a poston/about this day :D. The title of the post changed this year, in 2010. So, in2011 I remembered and wrote it again and with a different title again.

So, 6 Years and 5 posts about 26 January and now comesthe 6^th one. All of these previous posts were kind of ‘Status Update’ type ofposts. This year, I want to be different. I do not want this one to be a statusupdate kind of a post. There are enough of those already here. This 26 Januarylet’s talk something different, let’s talk about India. The other day, I wascoming back from office, and there was this advertisement on the radio whichwent something like this – A guy is talking about himself, and goes on tosay that he had his plans after college that he will do his higher studies fromsome reputed University overseas, and then probably settle there. But, then hegoes on to say that Life probably had other plans and he did a small mistake –he watched ‘Swades’- The Shahrukh Khan movie, and his whole Life changed afterthat. He decided that he will settle in India, and work for India in India(with the Swades music playing in the background… this one à http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIjyzuCZvtM&feature=related). No, matter how hard I try – I get goose bumps every timeI hear this advertisement or the Swades song for that matter.

Now, cut back to the Real Life. Honestly, how many of us everthink about going to the US/UK or for that matter some other developed country?It’s a general tendency, and I don’t blame anybody for wanting to go abroad –everybody dreams of a good life for himself and his family. Everyone isselfish. We all are here in this world once, and for just some 80 odd years.Why would you not want to spend those in some good place, where you get all thefacilities, and where you have a good life. Nothing wrong in that. Why would Iwant to spend my life trying to cleanse a system, which we all, to a certainextent, agree is damaged beyond repair. Why would I want to swear at 20 peopledaily while coming back from office to home on the roads? Why would I want tocurse some government officer for asking a bribe for doing his duty? Why wouldI want to make my blood boil after seeing statues of Elephants and somepolitician being erected with my hard earned money in the name of upliftment ofbackward classes? I mean, no one wants a life where he has to fight for eventhe basic necessities. It ain’t easy to live in a place where you have to fightdaily with somebody, it aint easy to walk daily on a footpath which no onecares about, it ain’t easy to fight with corruption every day. It aint easyliving here. It’s tough out here, and everybody is not strong enough. So, whatwe do is choose to not Live here anymore. You earn more, you spend more and yousettle outside the country, sacrificing a few things (like family and yourculture?) and in the bargain get a life which many people dream.

I have seen people willing to do anything and everything justto get their Passport stamped, such is the craze. Just yesterday, I met a schoolfriend after about 2 years and the first thing he asked me was, ‘aur, Onsiteka kya scene hai?’ In the ITindustry, everyone after 2 years experience thinks about going to onsite andearn some quick bucks. If you are lucky enough, your employer files for yourgreen card, else you have earned some good money. There is a differentpsychology that is working out here. You go to Onsite, earn some good money ina short span of time, and if you are unlucky to be called back then you at leasthave the money to not crib about walking on the dirty footpath or fighting withthat autowalla daily for Rs 5 or put upwith the tantrums of the greedy landlord. You can buy yourself a car, and aflat. You can live in a fake world of yours where you can go visit the Pubs onthe weekends, and forget about which politician is looting you of how much andwhere. Why would somebody want to live in a country where the rate of inflationis much more than your salary increment? I would much rather earn in dollars,and then pray that the Rupee depreciates more.

Sometime back, there was an article I read somewhere,which talked about an NRI couple who after spending many years in the USAdecided to return to India, where they thought Home is(was). Even though theyhad the money, they were at the end of the day living in somebody else’s countryand were aliens there. They returned to India, and their experience afterreturning to India was nothing short of horrible. The couple could not cope upwith the Life here. They could not live with the small day-to-day issues youhave to face here. Such a horrible experience it was for them, that theydecided to return back to the USA . The sophisticated NRI’s could not cope upwith the Life of India and gave up. They retuned back and decided to never comeback again. They made a compromise.

Now, why am I talking all this? No, I am not here tryingto make a point, neither I am here trying to discourage anybody from goingabroad. I am just trying to see it from the outside. And, I am no differentfrom the crowd here. It’s a topic about which I can talk so much – but, I cannottake sides in this debate. I can and I do see both sides of the coin. It’s so easyto go away, but at the same time it is so difficult too. After all, if it was soeasy – no one would have stayed back. And, Anna Hazare would have probably berunning a Marathon and getting into Record books.

The Tale of Incomplete posts!

2012-01-10T22:22:00.000+05:30

Ok, initially the idea was to write a post about the Infy to CTS experience – but then I choose not to complete this one. Because, I can write about the Infy experience for pages at a stretch but dont want to write prematurelly about CTS.

Later, I thought about writing about the previous year as a whole, but whenever I started writing it ended up ‘From Infy to CTS’ post. Imade two good attempts to write this one, and numerous short and half hearted.. naa .. not half hearted, just short attempts where laziness took overearlier than most times.

I have now realized that I wont be able to complete thisone, or even if I manage to complete this one, it is going to be too long. So,what I’ll do is post the two drafts! For a change let’s see how the drafts lookwhen they get published unpolished :).

So, here it goes –

1^st one (this was drafted sometime around lateNovember) –

Back to Delhi – and an End of a 4 year stint withInfosys.

Bangalore was good while it lasted, buttime to move on! Chandigarh, to be honest, never comes into thepicture. It’s a nice city, but somehow I don’t have any memory of these 10months which I think I will keep for life.

It is often said that you don’t realize the importance ofwhat you have until, you lose it. To be honest, I never underestimated theimportance of what I had. While, I always knew what I was missing out on, buteverything comes with a price (not that I had chosen to pay the price myself).

Let me start with what I had till the time I was withInfy and I loved it –

Two amazing people as my Seniors. I doubt if Iwould ever get to work with such cool folks ever again.
I don’t remember a single instance when I asked for a leave and it was denied.:) These included pretty long leaves of around a month on 2 occasions. I wasprobably a spoiled kid, who used to get whatever he asked for :).
Work – I used to love working. Well, things did change at the end. It was notthat the work changed, it was just that the scenario changed (that change inscenario, probably calls for a separate post). I remember telling my friends –I love my work. It still scares me how that one deadly week in January2010(Appraisal rating time) changed the course of my career. Infosys was neverthe same for me. If there is something I wish I could change, it probably wouldbe that one week and things would automatically fall in place later on.

*Incomplete*

2^nd one (this one came up around the 1^stweek of Jan and was intended to be reflection of the past complete year, butsoon I realized that it would end up being just an Infy story, so discontinued)–

Before the now customary Chabbi Janvari post comes upagain this year, I have something else to post too. This one was pending fromquite some time. I started numerous times, then stopped, started again andstopped again. Here I am, finally keying it down.

Covering the whole year in a single post is not an easytask, as I am finding out now.

2011 was a year filled with plenty of ups and plenty ofdowns as well considering the work front. I was forced to take a some ofdecisions I never wanted to or probably never thought I would.

The Year began with a transfer from Bangalore toChandigarh. Well, to be honest – I was cornered to ask for this transfer Inever wanted. I was, very much to the surprise and astonishment of many, happyin Bangalore. Issues at work place forced me to look for a change of Job. I wasactually very happy with my work an year back, I had excellent team mates, anexcellent rapport with everyone and things were looking up. And, then came theappraisal and the office politics and it killed the enthusiasm and themotivation in me. Things could only go downwards from there. And, once themotivation went for a toss – it was hard to bring it back. Thus began the Jobhunt. With a couple of offers in hand, I had the bargaining power. Negotiatingwith senior managers, and sitting on the other side of the table is probablythe best experience (did you read it as revenge? :P) you can ask for in office:) It was time to hit back :D . I weighed my options and decided to put down mypapers, very well knowing that I would be taking my resignation back. Withthings not working out the way I would have wanted in Infosys, it was time tomove on and with the pressure (peer pressure, you might call it) of moving backto Delhi – I asked for a transfer to Chandigarh and eventually moving to Delhifrom Chandigarh being part of the plan (a transfer to Chandigarh is not an easytask by any means in Infosys). Due to the dependency I had, the managersrelented and agreed to transfer me to Chandigarh, against all the odds stackedup against my transfer (considering the business issues.) All said and done – cutting the long storyshort – I moved to Chandigarh in mid Jan.

Chandigarh is truly ‘The City Beautiful’. The city istailor made for a person like me – who loves the Laid back life. Sometimes, Ifeel that I am a complete misfit for the city I have lived the majority of mylife in :D. Anyways, I had to move back to Delhi eventually, don’t know why –it is sort of a question I still don’t have an answer to and probably neverwill. Just that, Delhi (Dilli, as we call it) is where HOME is. A few months inChandigarh, and the job hunt was back again. Moving to Chandigarh and stayingin Infosys was never an option :). When I was beingtransferred to Chandigarh from Bangalore, the Senior manager told me – in hiswords - “ I am doing this transfer for you as an extraordinary case andas an exception. I need a Gentleman’s word from you that, you won’t shift fromChandigarh to Delhi after a few months.” I know he took great pains in gettingmy transfer approved (it took 14 approvals in all from various authorities andneedless to say from the highest authority as well) I have no qualms in sayingthat, I broke my promise and I don’t have any guilt about that. After 8 months,I resigned again and this time I was not taking my resignation back. InNovember I was back in Delhi and the near 2 months in Delhi in 2011 have funfilled, to say the least :)

Apart from a change in job and cities in the past year,another thing which marked this year was a string of wedding invitations :) A LOT of my friends either got married or engaged in this year.

*Incomplete*

... and then I give in to laziness again :D

I wish...

2011-07-21T23:44:00.001+05:30

... that I would own a house near the Sea one day, so that I can go and sit on the beach whenever I feel like and want to.

I just love to gaze at the Sea, the water, the waves, the beach. The sound which the water makes, when it comes and hit the shores is just music to the ears. I can sit there, watch the waves coming towards me and then hitting the sea shore. There is a certain calmness in that noise, which makes you forget everything.

I have lived the majority of my life in the Plains of North India, and the first time I saw the Sea was when I visited Goa in 2008. Only, after 23 Years did I realise what I had missed all these years. I remember, the first time when I saw the Sea from close, I kept looking at it for some time and then took a deep sigh after seeing the sight in front of me. It was pure magic, Love at first sight. The sheer vastness coupled with the calmness of the scene in front of me was something which blew me away.

Even today, whenever I am tense, or a little sad - I badly wish there was a beach somewhere near, and I could just run away from all the madness around me, go and sit there, and watch doing nothing but watching the water play with the land. There are a countless emotions which comes to my mind to describe the feeling which comes with sitting on a beach, but words fail me!

I wish! I wish!

Namma Bengaluru!

2011-02-20T13:49:00.000+05:30

It did not take me more than 3 seconds to decide on the title of this post. It had to be something in Kannada, and what better than this phrase - which anyone who has stayed in Bangalore for more than a month would understand. ‘Namma Bengaluru’ means something like ‘Apna Bengaluru/Bangalore’. And, if you are one of those who doesn’t understand this phrase, then you must be really bad with languages, even worse than what I am (I haven’t learnt any Kannada , apart from 3-4 words/phrases – one of them being Kannada Gothilla – meaning Kannada nahi aati).

This post is meant to be all about Bangalore (atleast the idea is, I don’t know how it turns out), I owed one to this city. There have been umpteen times that I have decided to write something about Bangalore, and have even started writing a few times but all were unsuccessful attempts. I think this is the right time to key down this post, finally! The earlier times, the only reason why I was not able to complete the post was because every time I was confused about what to write and how to put it down. This time, I’ll put down everything that is coming into my mind from the day my transfer to Chandigarh was approved till the day I reach Chandigarh. Ahh… just as I am about to start writing again, I realize I don’t have enough to write, again!!! I give up, I just cannot describe the 2.5 years here, its way beyond my capabilities, I guess :) So, it will be more of a description of the last few days only, and I have purposefully decided to cut down on the senti stuff. So, here it goes -

11 AM, Wednesday 12th Jan –

My transfer to Chandigarh has finally been approved and I will be joining Infy Chandigarh from next week. I inform my bro about it and he is happy to hear the news. Next, I shoot down a mail to Pankaj, Rahul and Saurabh that I would be shifting as early as the coming Friday, and they are not happy to hear that I would be leaving and that too so early. I myself wanted atleast 1-2 week notice before being transferred, just so that I could plan out the last few days in Bangalore properly :). What followed in the mail were a few angry words from all of them for going on such a short notice and a few senti ones too.

The excitement of moving closer to family was clearly overshadowed by the disappointment of moving out of Bangalore, away from friends. I know many people who just hate Bangalore, and I was definitely not one of them. Most of the time what people say is – “The only good thing about Bangalore is its weather.” But, not for me! I love the city, and there surely has to be much more than just the weather to make me fall in Love with this city. Ok, the ‘falling in Love with the city part’ I just wrote it because it looked nice :P. I am most definitely a Delhite at heart and Love Delhi, just for what Delhi is – my Hometown, and the place I have lived more than 20 Years. But, that does not mean I do not like Bangalore. I have spent more than 2.5 years in Bangalore and these 2.5 years have been memorable. It was the first time that I stayed away from home alone. I was lucky enough to get good room mates who I hope would be friends for a lifetime! The freedom that came with living alone and with a steady salary is something which can never be matched :P

I wanted to leave on Friday itself or early Saturday, just so that I could travel to Chandigarh with my brother who was going to travel on Saturday afternoon. But, Saurabh, Rahul and Pankaj did not let me. To be honest, neither did I wanted to travel before enjoying my last weekend in Bangalore :) So, I willingly bowed to the pressure and booked my tickets to Delhi on Sunday morning, giving myself enough time to do some shopping in Delhi on Sunday and then travelling to Chandigarh on Monday morning.

The party started on Wednesday evening itself, and continued till 4 AM on Sunday! Home, Tundey Kabab, McD, LOR, Club 99 and Wonder La!

3:00 AM, 16th Jan – It’s almost time, the cab would come at 3:30. I booked the cab for early, even though my flight was at 7 AM (just wanted to be on the safer side). All of us were tired after coming back from Wonder La, but I was in no mood of sleeping. So, I planned to sleep in the flight only. The realization of the Bangalore journey coming to an end was still sinking in, I was sure that I am going to miss these days badly. The freedom, the fun and the friends – I was going to miss it all. The cab driver called, and I gave him the directions. The last drink was just about to finish, all my bags were packed and I was ready to go. It’s 3:30 and I was down, and all my stuff in the cab. We asked the driver to take one last picture. The crazy people I lived with – they got a katori filled with uncooked poha and asked me to throw it – lol - for the ones who don’t understand this tradition, when a bride gets married and is about to leave in the doli she throws rice while taking her final steps towards the doli – so these idiots made me do this too. They had plans to throw coins as well when the cab leaves (another tradition), but somehow the non crazy sense prevailed and they finsished it off just by pushing the car – just like it is done to the doli. I was in the true sense of it LOL!!! The driver was also laughing seeing us do all that idiotic stuff :D

The drive to the airport was pretty smooth, and I reached their quite early, so had to wait some time before the check-in started. The journey to the airport was quiet and the roads empty.

6 AM, 16th Jan – waiting for the Boarding to start. The check-in was pretty hassle free; I had only around 2 Kg extra in my baggage (much lesser than what I initially thought it would be). So, I dint need to pay any extra charges as the airlines usually do not mind the extra Kg or two. I boarded the flight at 7. As I was severely deprived of sleep for the past few days, and due to the tiring Wonder La trip yesterday I thought it was best to take a nap. I slept off – and when I woke up next I was at Delhi airport.

9:00 AM, 17th Jan – en-route to Chandigarh in Kalka Shatabdi Express, the temperature must be around 10-12 degree C. To be very honest, among the few things which I used to miss in Bangalore, winters were one of them. I missed wearing my woolens in Bangalore. I reached Chandigarh, at 11 AM, and go out to take an Auto to my Grandparent’s home, where I will be staying during my stay in Chandigarh. As soon, as I get out of the station, Autowallahs surround and ask, ‘Kitthe jaana hai?’ in the typical Punjabi accent. I remember the first day I landed at Bangalore airport, it was the same scene outside the Airport, the only difference was, they were saying, ‘Saar? Auto? Kahaan jaana?’ in a typical South Indian accent. A smile came on my face, Kannada se seedha Punjabi :) I’ll get used to the Punjabi accent now.

Sometime later in the week, a few days after joining office at Chandigarh – I have now realized, that I’ll miss Bangalore. Well, it is certainly not the weather – and it is definitely the freedom :D. I now have people who enquire why I was late from office, and how was the day at office. But, as they say, there is a time for everything – probably it is now time for being answerable. I enjoyed 3 amazing years of complete freedom, with no one to tell me that it is time to sleep, and if it is time to go to office. I slept when I wanted, I woke up when I felt like, I ate Maggi at 3 AM, I went out whenever I was bored at home, I never had to ask anybody if had to plan a trip over the weekend, I never had to tell anybody if I would come home late – in short, it was complete freedom.

And, No! Bangalore was not just about drinking .. just to set the record straight.

Bangalore, you were AWESOME! Stay that way, until we meet next … Until then, stay at 25 degrees Celsius all year, I’ll miss you during the Summers up here :P

26 Jan 2011

2011-01-27T11:07:00.003+05:30

Ok, this 26 Jan was different than how most of the holidays used to be in Bangalore! As this is my first holiday here (last weekend I went to Bhatinda, to meet my cousin, so was not at home – and that trip was a little adventurous in its own ways, so the weekend gone by was pretty exciting), I was a little scared thinking about what I will be doing here all day.

On 25th Jan, I slept at 10 PM, after drinking my glass of milk – I still don’t have internet here, so had nothing else to do. The only plan I had for this 26th Jan was to wash my clothes, get an internet connection and clean up and setup my new room. Also, I had planned to meet 2 of my school friends(Gagan and Bhatti) who are in Chandigarh, but that somehow did not materialize and is postponed to the weekend.

The day began rather early, considering a holiday, and much to my surprise and a little bit of anger. It was still 8:30, and it was cold, and I was in my blanket enjoying my sleep in the bed when suddenly I hear – “Dudh rakhiya hai gas te, garam kar ke pee layin! Assi ja rahe haan, roti bana ke rakh ditti hai teri .. dabe ‘ch payi hai, khaa layin!” Boom! What was that! Come on, it’s a holiday, and it is still 8:30, and why is everybody here so concerned about my food! I think I am a grown up, and I don’t need people constantly running after me telling me when to eat and what to eat :-/ On a normal holiday, I would have woken up around 11 AM, would have gone to the kitchen made something up for myself to eat/drink or get a packet of munches and lazed around for sometime before actually having food. But, it was not to be like this today!

Now, I was fully awake trying to find out what to do on a holiday! Then I decided, let me wash my clothes, and then have some food! So, the day started with washing clothes, then some food. Later in the day, around 2 PM to be precise, I was all but done with every task I thought I would do today – wash clothes, set up my room, contact Airtel for new Broadband connection. Cutting the long story short, I had the full day to myself now, for lazing around and sitting in the Sun!

The day ended at 9 PM, with the movie Se7en, and I was off to sleep! Ahh .. I forgot one thing, I went with my Grandmom in the evening to get milk from the neighborhood. All, in all it was a quite sedate 26th Jan – had I been in Delhi, probably I would have gone to watch the 26th Jan parade live for the first time, as my bro had passes for it :(

I think it will take me some time to adjust to my new schedule :) .. or rather I’ll try to not stick to this schedule, else it is going to be a boring life here in Mohali/Chandigarh!

P.S. – ‘Namma Bengaluru’ is next! I have to wait for the Internet connection at home to write that one. It is already drafted to a certain extent, on my laptop at home, just waiting for the internet connection to post it. Hopefully, I should have everything installed by this weekend, and I’ll be back online!

Frustrated

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:(

Feeling like the unluckiest man on earth at the moment.

Are you like this?

2010-02-08T00:08:00.000+05:30

You say - Do this.
I wont do it!

You say - Can you do it?
I will probably do it!

You say - Can you please do it?
I will do it!

JLT!

Happy Republic Day!

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http://msitece.blogspot.com/2009/01/aa-gayi-chabbi-janvary-is-baar-2-saal.html

http://msitece.blogspot.com/2006/01/aa-gayi-chabbi-janvary.html

http://msitece.blogspot.com/2007/01/aa-gayi-chabbi-janvary-ek-baar-firse.html

Yes, this year the Title is different! Why? Dont know, just felt like changing it, 'Aa gayi chabbi janvary... ' just did not appeal to me.

So, lets start ...

Yesterday, I was chatting with Amitesh telling him that I wanted to write something on the blog but just didnt knew what to write. Then, he reminded me that 26th Jan is around the corner. I had almost forgotten that I used to write this post titled 'Aa gayi chabbi janvary ...' on Republic day. So, here I am wishing you a Happy Republic Day! (If there is anything at all to be happy about being a Republic !?!, well you can say you realize the importance of something only when you loose it ...) To most of us this day is merely another holiday, most of the festivals/bla bla days have in fact have met the same fate ... ok lets not be cynical and enjoy what we have and yes celebrate it :D.

Abrupt End!

~ Laters!

P.S. - This post lands in the 'YES-I-STILL-BLOG' category.
P.P.S. - I am short of Ideas!

Shoot!

2009-10-28T08:23:00.002+05:30

A few days back I realized that I am soon going to be 24! I mean Twenty Four. Mann, now that sounds like a matured age, and I really don’t think I do things which should ideally be done by people of this age. Now, what are the things that should be done by people of this age? Well, I would leave that up to you to decide.

My bro is 27! Going to be married soon! … and I dint even realize that he has been ‘working’ since almost 6 years now (As if I realized that I have been working since two years now!). What the heck, it seems just like yesterday when we used to go playing in the park together. School seems to be just like yesterday. We used to wake up at 5:30 AM in the morning t catch the 6:30 bus, and be in the school attending Morning assembly at 7:30 AM. The Drum beats, which used to sound every morning to signal the start and end of the Assembly, are still fresh. The bus ride, in the afternoon from school back to home used to be the best journey.

It didn’t really occur to me when those years passed by (well, in hindsight atleast I can say this!).

I am growing old! and the sad part is I realize it.

Quote - You will never be younger than what you are now!

Somewhere down the line....

2009-09-02T19:03:00.001+05:30

… I forgot the word ‘ME’. Am trying hard to remember it. It is tough, but I guess it is important too.

Its been too long, since I cared about the ‘ME’, and it slowly became a habit. Now, I realize, if you forget the ‘ME’ no one else would care either.

Because, at the end of the day it is only me who matters!

PERIOD!

Once upon a time ...

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Once upon a time, there was a guy. He always thought that he knew what he wanted out of LIFE. He never really used to care about what future had in store for him.

He always thought that being happy was the sole aim of his life and happiness could never be bought with money. And money was always the last thing on his mind, not that he had it in abundance, just that it was always a secondary thing for him, a thing which so many fools around him were mad about. He always thought that he does not need 'easy money', and would work hard to earn it and THEN he would enjoy LIFE when he had earned it all by himself through hard work.

He always thought that only good things happen to good people, and so he always tried to be good to everyone no matter what the situation was! He never was selfish, always thought that friends and friendship come above everything else in LIFE. Honesty was one thing he always kept very close to his heart, and practised it against all odds.

Life for him was a journey, he intended to complete with complete peace of mind among his friends and family.

BUT ...

P.S. – Repeated! Ignore if you have already read this.

The Indecisive mind

2009-04-01T20:38:00.003+05:30

Note: The title of the post doesnt match the content of the post :D

Many times I think about writing something, but when I start writing I dont get anything to write. My 'would be' posts always tend to end up as soon as they start. I have numerous topics in my mind, about what to write, but I just dont have enough things to talk about those topics.

Sometimes, I am just so excited about writing something, but just when I start to think what I will write, i feel I just dont have enough things to write about. The same thing happned with this post too. There are many things on my mind, but somehow I dont manage to write them or express them. I have numerous topics, about out which I want to write, but just dont know what to write :O.

On a different note, a few random ramblings:

I am in Delhi these days, never knew the trip would be this boring, maybe you can say that I am boring.Somehow I have never hated Delhi as much as I am hating it now, rather I had never hated Delhi, I used to love the place. I have almost made up my mind, if at some point of time in life I am capable enough of deciding where to settle down, it is not going to be Delhi, not atleast Janakpuri. There are numerous reasons for this, but dring this trip I just hated the place. The people here were never so bad, all of a suddenly dnt know what hapenned :O
I was never so money minded. If anyone who was there, remember the trip to Jammu in the final year, and the discussion at night at Patni Top, I said "Mujhe agar life bhar 15K ki naukri bhi karne ko mile na, I'll be happy as long as I am satisfied with my job". Oh my, how wrong I was. Only thing on my mind now is how to make money, but I really dont know how to :s . People say hard work seldom pays, the sad thing is, the only thing I am capable of is hard work. I am not extraordinarily brilliant, nor am I super talented, neither am i good at politics or 'manager ki chamcha-giri' . I have become sort of a workholic, or maybe it is just an escape route for the mind. Or maybe I enjoy my work :-?
I have learnt how to move on!! Yeah !! :D
Got to work upon my people skils :D , well i am trying to work upon them .. lets see how it goes :D
Never was I a more firm believer of "Whatever happens, happens for the best". \m/ ... maybe this gives Hope! .. and you all know, Hope is a good thing :D

~Laters

Aa gayi chabbi janvary.. is baar 2 saal ke baad :P

2009-01-23T18:54:00.001+05:30

http://msitece.blogspot.com/2006/01/aa-gayi-chabbi-janvary.html

http://msitece.blogspot.com/2007/01/aa-gayi-chabbi-janvary-ek-baar-firse.html

Yaa… I missed writing the post last year.

Reason for missing it last year: Don’t know!

Reason for writing it again this year: Don’t know!

I have got no updates from my side here, apart from the fact that I missed the Goa trip. A decision I took knowing very well that I am going to regret (for the rest of my life maybe). Also knowing that this ‘may be’ the last trip when most of the college people would be together!

And yeah, this 26 January I got no plans, will be just alternating between eating and sleeping, and maybe I will watch the parade this year (Actually I doubt it, no one in the house will be willing to watch a boring parade, they would be happy watching Zee Cinema or Start Gold or Set Max :| )

And, yeah is it only me who feels that my earlier posts were nothing but crap (as if its not crap now :P )? One thing has definitely changed, now I don’t crib about no one writing posts here on the blog!!! :D

Jai Hind!!!

P.S. – I miss my woolens here. I miss the blanket here. I miss the room heater here.

here = Bengaluru.

When? Kab?

2009-01-21T11:21:00.001+05:30

Jab deta hai to chappad faad ke deta hai … aur jab leta hai to chamdi bhi udhed leta hai !!!

Dena kab shuru karega? :(

Uncle!

2009-01-20T09:34:00.001+05:30

You realize that you have grown up when your neighbor's kid calls you Uncle!

P.S. – I am Just 23

What to do ?

2009-01-08T17:52:00.001+05:30

What to do when people around are forcing you to become dumb, even though you are not?

Suggestions most welcome!!!

:)

2009-01-06T18:35:00.001+05:30

Just finished glancing at some of the old posts in the blog. Felt Nice :)

On a similar note; watching a Late Night Movie/s on Star Movies/HBO on Weekends seems to be the best nostalgic experience for me! Reminds me of the good old college days :) Watching back to back movies from 11 PM till 3 AM/5AM in complete silence (everyone else is asleep in the house at this time) is an experience which no Multiplex can match!!!

Random

2008-12-09T13:59:00.001+05:30

Long time I posted here :(

I am getting restless to post something and anything :|

-- Maybe I will be able to manage my time better, once I am a little more experienced in my work :| ... I hope so !!!

-- Its been almost 3 years since I am blogging , now dont ask me why I am telling this ... just felt like sharing it ... no its not like, ‘on this day that year’, just a random thought which struck my mind :s .. I guess I actually I started blogging somewhere in Jan '06.

-- Eprise !!!! Damn it !!!

-- There is a book called, 'Book Of Answers' ,it is Freaky !!!! Everytime I go to Landmark in Forum, I open this book atleast once :P … Amitesh ne Arun ko dikhaayi, Arun ne mujhe…. Aur main baaskiyon ko dikhaata hoon :D

-- Talking about Landmark, mann... the place is an amazing Time pass :P

-- Talking of Landmark, yesterday there were queues to enter Forum :O ... I mean ... what the hell :O ... queue up to enter a Mall :O

-- Argh!! I almost forgot that I am paid to work and not to blog :X

Until next time ... cya !!!

I am in a professional environment now :(

2008-08-27T18:53:00.001+05:30

Yeah… sad but true :(

I don’t want to grow up! Why do we have to sober down once we become professionals? :(

A couple of incidents made me write this thing….

On my way to Goa, I and my group were sitting in the bus… and another group of youngsters was also there, possibly from infy … and everything was so calm, everything was so silent, no one was talking with each other, they were all sitting silently! I asked Rohit, why is everyone sitting so silently? He replied , they are all professionals… :O .. I replied, is it?? He said, “Look at us, we also have sobered down very much after college” …

This Monday, I brought Home Baked Cooked, which my Mom made, to office!!! I shooted a mail to my team mates saying, “Sweets at my Desk”. I expected everyone to come running to my desk, and finish off the cake in matter of seconds!!! But to my surprise, 15 minutes after I sent that mail , no one came to my cubicle ( my team sits at different places on the same floor). After about half an hour, one by one people started coming, they took one piece, and said Thank You and went away!!! :O A few of them dint even come :( . At the end of the day, I was forced to take more than half of the cake back home :( This was the same cake which people used to absolutely love when I was in college, and whenever they used to see it, it was gone in a matter of seconds!!!

Has something changed? These two incidents from the very recent past certainly make me feel so :(

I try my best to, not to grow up… I don’t want the child in me to ever die… the craziness need not die, EVER!!!

Finally !

2008-08-11T16:00:00.000+05:30

Abhinav Bindra :)

Finally … after such a long wait, India has its first ever Gold in a individual event in the Olympics!

And a Gold in any event after 28 years, the last one came in 1980 in Moscow Olympics, when USA and allied countries boycotted the event!!! This means Indian National Anthem in Olympics after 28 years :)

One Year - Part 5 (Generic Training)

2008-07-29T18:28:00.000+05:30

Okk, I know its all getting a little toooo … long :P … will try to finish it all up now :)

Generic Training is meant for those who aren’t from CSE/IT background. The first module was PST – Problem Solving Techniques (a non-evaluative module), so no Module Test for this one :) … It was just some basic Algorithm etc and stuff.

The first evaluative module was CHSSC(Computer Hardware and System Software Concepts). It was just some basic computer funda’s, which I luckily had studied in Operating Systems and 8085 in B. Tech (now that’s another thing how much I knew about it ). I was nervous like anything on the night before the exam, but in the end it all went fine and I cleared the exam with an ‘A’! Slowly I started settling into the routine of studying ‘daily’, which was something new to me :P. A night before an exam I used to sleep at around 1 or 2 at night, slowly the sleep time started getting shorter and shorter with each passing day and module. With the bulk of assignments we had to complete everyday, this was bound to happen!

The two most dreaded modules in Generic training were supposed to be PF(Programming Fundamentals) or you can call it ‘C’ and RDBMS, and I was scared of both of them as others had told me that the result in these modules is hardly 30-40% !!! First for me was PF, and I studied hard for it … ya ya .. sounds strange, but I did studied hard. The exam was on Monday, so I luckily got a two days break to prepare well for the exam. When I was preparing for the exam, I strangely enough found it quite easy and was surprised as to why was the result in this module was so poor :O … and a night before the exam I went and watched ‘Bombay to Bangkok’ :P… and luckily enough I cleared the exam the next day :D

The other dreaded module in generic training, RDBMS… I cleared that one too!!! Not to mention, that this was one module wherein I developed the habit of sleeping in the class, which I found hard to get rid of until the end of the training. This was actually the first module, when I studied till 5 AM in the morning before the exam :O

Then came the generic compre… I gave it, felt relieved that generic training is over.

POST OVER

Part 6(Stream training and postings) -> Stream training started, in between I forgot to tell thant I was given Dot-Net Stream .. which some said was very tough

I didn’t have any of my friends in my Dot Net batch from the generic training class, as they shuffled the batch. Most of them got Mainframe or Finacle as their stream.

In the stream it became a habit to not sleep a night before the module.

I failed in one module, which I did manage to clear finally.

Also, some in my batch managed to face the exit procedure from the company :(

Finally I managed to clear my stream training as well , with a ‘few’ sleepless nights waiting for the results to be announced as the previous batch had 32 exit procedures in a class of 100. :O

I got my posting in Bangalore, again none of my friends got there posting in Bangalore, most of them got either Chandigarh or Pune !!!

Finally, I am here in Bangalore and boring you all with all this crap.

Phew ….

OVER and OUT!!!

One Year! - Part 4 (The Early days at Mysore)

2008-07-17T13:56:00.001+05:30

Oh…yes, first day at my first (err .. second) job. The first few days are supposed to be induction, and many people had told me that we can enjoy this wonderful campus only in these first few days, later these people wouldn’t give us time to even meet your room mate (and they were right.. to an extent).

The horror stories had started pouring in even before the ‘actual’ training started. I met Mehtab (another school mate of mine) in Mysore, and he told me that he had not slept for the past three days , and Combiflam and Black Coffee were his food and water for that time. :O . He had his ‘compre’ on the day I joined. Now, for those who are wondering what this ‘compre’ is, it is the short for Comprehensive Exam. This ‘compre’ is the same like the final exam, where the entire syllabus comes in the paper. I was scared to say the least! He had stories about people fainting during the exam, exit from the company for failing to clear the module exams (something like the sessionals/minors in B. Tech). I was scared even before the training had begun.

On the 3^rd day all of us were shifted to the Hostels inside the campus from the Hotels in the city. I luckily (or unluckily as I later found out) got a room in the new hostel block, and to my surprise it was not on sharing basis . I got an independent room and the room was beautiful to say the least, with an Air-Conditioner, LCD TV , Sofa, Study table (duh .. !) :D . I was excited, and for a moment it felt that I was in some sort of a five star resort :D , with swmming pool, tennis courts, Multiplex, a building which resembled the White House, another one which can not be called a building if looked from the outside (SDB 4) and what not !:O All this was slowly beginning to sink in. Nearly 18 months back I had got a hard kick in the ass from this very company and here I was in Mysore, one of the best campus Infosys, or for that matter any company in India, has got! (Boasting .. )

In the second week began the technical training, before that we had a English test and I manage to clear that :D and that meant that most of the people had to com to office on Saturday, I had an off :D , and I was happy about it ! The first module was , PST (Problem Solving Techniques) , it was a non evaluative module, so there was not much to worry about. I entered the training room, and searched for my seat and went and sat there patiently waiting for the session to begin. Sitting around me were all new faces, none of whom I saw during the induction period. I had to start it all over again, all those with whom I had made some friendship during the one week of induction or whom I knew before coming to Mysore were in different training rooms. It was a new beginning … but who knew that it wasn’t the only new beginning I would have to make here, there were plenty more in the offing.

Next to me was sitting a girl called Puspita, and on the other side was Puneet Mishra, I started with a basic introduction with both of them :) The training started and slowly I came to know other people around also, Pratik, Shah ji(Pratik Jagdishchandra Shah), Chatur(Nitin Chaturwedi), Mishra ji(Nitin Mishra), Preenam, Nitika, Pulkit and a few more. We all made a small group of ours. Slowly I started gelling into the new environment and getting used to the new things around me!

Next in line was the ‘real’ thing for which I was here :O … technical training :O

to be continued …

One Year - Part 3

2008-07-11T11:33:00.000+05:30

After giving the interview, I waited for 28th Jan, my new DoJ at Aztecsoft, patiently again. Somewhere in mid Dec I got a mail from Aztecsoft about my DoJ being postponed further till May ’08. This was when all hell broke loose again . I dint informed it to anybody that my DoJ had been postponed, and thought of telling them only when the result of Infosys interview was out!!! But, I was meant to experience this too…. A guy by the name of Avnit Anand(whom many of you I guess know, as the Agarsen ka topper) just did his part and my parents came to know about the new DoJ through him…. ..

Finally on 6th Jan I received a call from Infosys Bangalore about my selection and , I was told about my joining at Mysore. Things smoothened out again! I packed my bags and boarded the flight to Bangalore on 12th Jan. The only sad part about my joining Infy on 14th Jan was that I would have to miss my Sis’ wedding :( . This would be one of my biggest regrets :( , but there was hardly anything I could do about it.

Tickets booked, all set to go !!

I always thought that the day I land in Bangalore, nothing would be a problem for me as my brother was already staying there , and I would have everything setup for me :), from landing at the airport to a place for staying in Bangalore … but I guess there were different plans for me!!! I landed in Bangalore and my brother was in Punjab, so had to take an auto and went to Amitesh’s place where I stayed for one night and left for Mysore next morning. Luckily I got some company on my way from Delhi to Mysore. A guy called Jot, my schoolmate from 5th class , I met him at the airport. He too was joining Infosys with me! We together went to Mysore from Bangalore.

We reached the Mysore campus at around 1 in the afternoon, and after registering ourselves went to the hotel rooms which were being provided to us by Infosys. I dint get a chance to roam around the campus as we were not staying in the hostel.

The next day, I got up early, dressed smartly (eh .. ? ). We all got downtstairs and waited for the bus to come and pick us up, and till then we clicked some pics :) (that’s another story that I never got them)..

The bus came to the hotel around 7:30 and took us to the campus.

to be continued …

One Year ! – Part 2 (The Interview)

2008-06-20T18:00:00.000+05:30

Oh, Yes! I cleared the infosys written exam again ! The next day was the interview . I was alone at home that whole week, so dint hv anyone this time to iron my formal cloths. Bought a new folder and somehow managed to ron my cloths. I decided to wear my new cloths, which I had bought recently as I was about to leave for my joining at Aztecsoft J.

The night before the interview, I just brushed up a few current affair topics that I was expecting to be queried about in the interview. The next morning nicely dressed up, I left home for the interview venue by bus, and reached there a good one hour ealrlier than my scheduled time of interview. As soon as I sat in the waiting area after submitting my documents, I was called by a guy and asked to wait outside the the interview room until the interviewer calls me inside( jus for some info, this guy who asked me to wait outside the interview room was the same guy who also came at MAIT during the infy test J ) . Waiting patiently outside the room, I rehearsed my ‘About Me :P’ , and adjusted my Neck-Tie :D .

After about 3-4 minutes this man in his 50’s called me inside. After signing on the attendance sheet and telling my registration number etc. started my ‘Interview’ , and to my delight I was not asked to ‘Introduce’ myself. It started with the question , ‘What does your Father do?’ , ‘Is your mother a housewife ?’, ‘Any siblings?’ . It went on quite smoothly. Then a bit of a discussion on my Fathers Job and a bit more on my Brother’s job and his educational background. So far no tricky questions! Then, he after seeing my resume asked if I liked cricket? I replied positively , and then followed a few more questions like, Coach of the Australian Cricket team, Which team won the last World Cup and who is the coach of the Indian Cricket Team. I replied correctly to all of them J, seemed quite simple to me J :D. Then he asked if I read newspapers and asked me if I read about politics. I said Yes and then he asked me about the current ‘hot’ topics, which at that time was the ‘Nandigram issue’. I told him all about the Nandigram issue. Then he asked me about another issue about a writer, and asked me the name of the writer …. to which I replied ‘Taslima Nasreen’. Then discussion went on for a cuple of more minutes , in which he asked what was ‘One’ thing about which I felt very strongly about! To this I answered ‘The misuse of religion in Politics to garner votes (thanks to IC - India community on Orkut for this)’ . then a bit more discussion on this topic which went of quite well!

I answered all the questions related to politics and current affairs correctly, and to be very honest the full credit for this goes to IC – India community on orkut J . Had I not been visiting that community regularly and participating there, I wouldn’t have come to known about any of those current affairs, coz the lazy reader I am. I owe it big time to IC !!! I remember the nights on which I slept at 5 AM in the morning just chatting there on IC, learnt a lot of new things, learnt some of the reality of the country of which I was unaware of coming from a metropolitan city .

Now, after ending the general discussion came the IQ test :P, he asked me a question and I answered that pretty confidently ( though I must admit I later on discovered that my answer was only partially right, but I had given a full explanation to him backing my incorrect answer J ). And so the interview ended, and I came outside the room a relieved person.

I was expecting the result to be announced at that day only, but was told that they would inform everyone in 2-3 weeks. So, I left and thus started the wait for the result!!! The coming one month, I never knew would be ‘one of the worst’ time periods of my life. Came quite close to that July ’06 time period, I must say J .

to be continued …

One Year ! - Part 1

2008-06-14T15:01:00.000+05:30

The previous year … i.e. June’07 – May ’08 has been eventful in more than one way. I always thought that I had seen it all, but I was wrong. There were always some surprises in store for me, and to be very honest I was caught unawares and unprepared! Still, I have got no regrets.

The first checkpoint was 3^rd Dec ’07, the original DoJ ! Slowly everyone started to leave, and there I was waiting with a smile for my turn J , but there were different things in store for me. Joined Wipro BPO for a month and a half , and to be very honest , that is one experience I wont forget for my entire life! Fake certificates, fake resume, taking calls :P , night shifts, voice and accent training …. egg rolls and maggi at the ‘rerhi’ in front of the office building at 2:30 AM … it was all fun !!! and then the cabs, it was all an experience worth IT !

After WIPRO BPO which I had to leave under some ‘unavoidable’ circumstances :P came the real PAIN ! 4 months gone by and I am still there, 2^nd Dec is still some time away, sleeping and ‘orkutting’ was the only thing I used to do!!! This was the time when I became a regular to a community called INDIA on orkut, and this would prove to be my saviour in the end :D . Slowly the time passed by, SOMEHOW !!!

Sometime around Diwali I got a mail from Infosys, for an off-campus selection process on 2^nd December ’07, and I ruined my luck yet again , I had my tickets booked for 1^st December for Bengaluru and was going to miss this chance. I still hadn’t forgotten about 14^th July ’06 ,my first rejection at infy. But as luck would have it I got a mail around 1 week before 1^st Dec that my DoJ at Aztecsoft has been postponed to 28^th Jan ‘08 and so 2^nd Dec Infy test was now ON! and not tell about the month and half following the day I got the postponement mail. I lost it completely, ‘Down and OUT for the count’.

I went to give the written exam and to my surprise I cleared it again :O . . ……

to be continued...

Time to Move on ?

2008-06-14T12:43:00.003+05:30

Time to Move on ?

Yes !

Aur Suna ??

2008-03-28T17:43:00.001+05:30

When was the last time you called up someone and had ‘nothing’ to say and just to stretch the conversation, said “Aur suna ?” .

I have been noticing this for quite sometime, when I call some friend and we have virtually nothing to talk about I invariably repeat the same line again and again , “Aur Suna?” and the reply from the other side is also a standard one , “Bas chal raha hai/Bas sab sahi” or “Bas….. !!!” . There have been moments when both of us on the phone said the same phrase at the same time … and then follows an uneasy silence, persons on both sides waiting for the person on the other side to start some topic! In the end … the uneasy conversation ends with both the people saying… chal fir.. bbye… cya !!

Achievement!

2008-03-09T15:09:00.000+05:30

Something which I never managed to do in 4 years, I did it in 2 months :O

I finished one register :O ........ poora register khatam ho gaya :O , cant believe I did it! Also, the refill of the pen is also going to finish in a few days :O

Wow!!!

Changes!

2008-02-09T14:24:00.000+05:30

Time – 3:55 am
Date – 9 Feb ‘08
Location – Training Lab
Reason for being in training Lab – Project (to be submitted on 12th Feb)

I had decided that I wont be writing any senti stuff here…. But jus couldn’t hold it back today, thoda senti to likhoonga :P….. vella baitha hoon… code ban nahi raha aur neend aa nahi rahi .. so what better to do :P.

Time has changed , a lot has changed with it. INCLUDING ME !

From the past 4 years I don’t remember a single occasion when I had woken up for so late for a deadline which was still some time away… rather a lot far away by the standards I go with. :D

Well, one change that has come in me is that, of late I have started looking at things with a different perspective. I have slowly but surely started believing in “Whatever happens , happens for the best”. Another change I believe has come in me is that , I don’t know why, but I have started loving loneliness. I love being alone! I love solace! Whatever may be the reasons ….! And also …. ahhh leave it… discover the other changes yourself and let me know :D n yeah do point me out if I behave arrogantly with you, this is another change that has slowly started creeping in, which I would rather love to avoid at any cost, coz I hate arrogant people myself … reason for me saying this -> quite a few incidents in the previous few days whixh point out in that direction ! This is one habit , which I would love to keep off at any cost!

Something has gone in my mind, that FUN days of life are over and its all hardwork ahead! The golden days are over, and it’s the grind that is left ahead in LIFE! I sincerely hope I am wrong! I miss those days of college, I really miss them! I miss each and every person of my class, and when I say each and everyone I mean it! Every single person had a role to play in making those years memorable, I mean it EVERY SINGLE PERSON… jitu included :P I may not be able to talk to everyone, but I surely do remember all .

I can write so much here, I am just so full of thoughts, but somehow I cant manage to put the feelings in words… I write something and erase it.. maybe I am just full of emotions which are oozing to come out, that they are just spilling over! I would rather prevent them from spilling over! <- “Looks so clichéd, but its true!”

Time : 4:16 am Date : 9 feb ‘08
Next Destination – Hostel room -> bed :D
Reason to sleep -> no more in mood of making the project ( abhi to 4 din pade hain, old habits die hard :P ……. and also … no internet connection :((

Time of posting - 2:20 pm ( woke up at 12:45 pm)

PS. - Deep inside me , there is still a ray of hope(however dim it may be) that the best is yet to come!

!

2008-02-05T08:57:00.000+05:30

Bas ab yahaan par roz ek faaltu post aayegi meri taraf se..... aur haan, koi mere scraps chk kar sakta hai to mujhe update de dena yaar yahaan par :P

chao !!

tc

Yahoo Blocked :((

2008-02-05T08:45:00.001+05:30

Everything blocked :((

orkut, yahoo, gmail... sab kuch :((:((

hadd ho gayi yaar :-x

Sympathise with me !! :((

Addicted to IC !

2007-10-25T16:31:00.000+05:30

HC = Hangout Corner in IC

IC = India Community on Orkut

Day before yesterday I chatted in HC non-stop for 6 hrs…. it was then that I realized that I am definitely addicted. I logged in around 9 pm and logged out at 3 am!! and trust me , I never even realized it for a moment that I was there non-stop for 6 hrs!!! Until I saw the time! I spend many hours in IC n still I am not bored…. There is something there which keeps you there. So, what actually has made me addicted to the place n the people… let’s explore!!! and lets see what kind of an experience it has been !

After the end of my final semester papers in June ’07 I was a total vella …. my date of joining still had some time… n till that time I had to kill time…. One fine day I joined this community of India on Orkut, to my surprise it was quite an active community compared to other communities which only had spam! There was this thread called “Hangout corner! meeting place for all Indians “ which had almost 4 lakh posts.. I opened the thread n saw people chatting like they knew each other very well…. I observed it for few minutes n then posted “Kya yahaan roz aise hee mehfil jamti hai ??” a guy named Sarkar … replied “Haan… yahaan roz aise hee mehfil jamti hai… aaya karo tum bhi” .. I remember these exact words… for the next few days I started going there and used to post a few replies too… slowly got to know a few persons.. Shugar, Anshul (khade khade), Musa bhai n a few more…. got to know them bt never really interacted much with them.

On the very first day when I joined IC I also saw some serious topics going on there in other threads.. mostly Hindu/Muslim types and North/South Indian type… I started reading them… there was this guy called Achyut… he was going on and on about how India is not a secular country and the government is looting all the money from the Hindu temples.. and that money was used for Hajj subsidy.. and replying to Achyut was a guy called ‘Sir Khurram’ (yeah this was his DN that time ).. I was quite fed up with the way things were being talked there.. I decided to post something… I replied to Achyut “India is a secular country and please let it remain that way” … and after that Achyut replied “Prove it now pushpreet” and went on to call me another “SICKULAR” person… the term was new to me but I understood it :-p…. From dat day onwards I thought there was no use in participating in such threads where people had only hatred towards each other and nothing else.

Slowly I started know how IC functioned… the “To the MODS” and “Log thread” was new to me… occasionally I used to put in a comment in the serious threads aswell but I avoided any sort of debates with a conscious effort... as the debates/discussion happening there were mostly of a very low IQ.

After about 1-2 weeks of joining IC, I had to quit it for some 50 odd days… due to my job. I used to come online only for some time and during this time I jus checked my mails and chatted with few friends never really got the time to peep into what was happening at IC.

I quit my job on 10^th sep and this was the day from which I became more regular in IC as I really had nothing else to do!! J Thus began the journey to addiction to IC! I started being more regular in HC and slowly got addicted to the place. I would avoid taking names of all the people whom I have met in IC as I am bound to miss some names. Everyday it was normal for me to login around 9 pm and logout at 4am… and what I did there in IC was nothing short of time wasting/killing. I slowly got to know about how people just fir the sake of bashing other religions created topics and made news out of nothing, I learnt to ignore such people, as talking with them was like banging your head against a wall. It is not that there are only hate mongers in IC, there are people who look at things logically and with a sane mind, I made friends with such people. At the end of the day if you want you can have fun in the community and if you want you can fight your brains out!

All said and done, I have now realized that I am addicted to this community. I am slowly trying to get over it, as orkut can and will kill your social/real life if not used prudently. Slowly I am also trying to get over this addiction and use it in a limit so that I don end up screwing up my real life for the sake of a virtual life! I don’t know if I will succeed or not… but I am giving it a try… I have started decreasing orkutting by an hour daily :-p .. he he …… orkut has screwed up my sleep cycle completely… I sleep at 4 am daily these days… I will try and bring it down to atleast 12 midnight if not more :-p…

In little over a month I won’t be able to use Internet with the regularity that I use it these days… I am wondering what will happen then :o.. am I going to miss IC and many new friends I have made here as much as I sometimes miss my real life friends after college … then only will I realize what actually is the importance of the friends from the virtual world ! Anyways, this “Virtual friends Vs Real friends” deserve a separate post, I’ll try and come up with one very soon…… and maybe a post on the new friends I have made in IC on orkut too……. Or maybe not.. lets see :-| !

Until next time

Ciao !!

P.S. - I would once again say this line - I have never seen so much hatred in my life until I joined IC ! It sometimes makes me feel embarrassed to call myself an Indian after seeing so much hatred in the community.

Err... hmmm... ?%$#... whatever !!

2007-10-25T16:24:00.000+05:30

Back to Hiberbation

2006-10-14T10:16:00.000+05:30

I m leavin again guys.............

See u soon!!!!

Adios!

The Placement Story- 1 of 7

2006-10-08T09:20:00.000+05:30

NOTE: I hv written dis piece jus for myself… it hsnt been written coz I want ppl to read dis… I hv written dis coz if ever d time comes wen I m on loose ground… I wud read dis piece n live each n every moment of it again… n say to myself dat, I hv faced tougher times… I hv tried to be as elaborate as possible… n yes everything I have written is d truth. I haven’t written anything here to hurt anyone… bt if I magage to… plz excuse me… dis is certainly nt my intention. If u r reading dis fr some fun, then go no further…

Also, i havent edited dis thing, i may also hv skipped quite a few things..... which certainly isnt intentional, jus dat it ws a vry tiring experience writing dis whole thing... hd to go thru all the experiences once again... so please excuse!!! N yes it is only my side of the story..... the version of others may differ....

So the sixth semester begins…….. the usual way, no studies in the beginning… holidays, fests n wat not except classes. My fifth semester result ws also declared n ws nt dat bad.. if I compare it wid my previous rslts, Then the rslt of my backlog ws also declared n I gt thru dat one too…… even I don’t kno how I made it thru dat one…. I studied not more than 4-5 hours fr dat ppr d whole semester n gt thru…….. I wud jus say , miracles do happen!!!!!! In between the results ws the IP fest….. mann.. we had one rocking time over there…. Wid all the hooting n stuff, it was jus amazing. When we came back frm there, our throats wer completely out of shape coz off all d hooting n stuff…. Ours ws d only grp hvin som fun out there… This semester ws also the one in which we wer goin to decide or rather “we wer goin to find out” what we are goin to do the rest of our lives… our placement activities had to start this semester. I joined IMS, n yes I dint join it coz I wanted some extra coaching for preparing for MBA… I know myself inside out n I also know dat I wasn’t goin to study much there… bad habits die hard, u see!! I joined it coz later I dint wanted to repent dat I dint cleared some aptitude pprs (read placement pprs) or dint get a good percentile jus coz I dint join a coaching institute…. I had experienced it all before n jus dint wanted to repeat it. Some may say, ‘dude dats a not so gud reason to waste 20,000 bucks’ bt I wud say ‘hey it is better than repenting whole ur life why u saved 20,000 bucks’.

So, the semester ws on its way….1^st sessionals came n went….. totally un noticed.. my performance ws bad like anything… if I comapare it wid d 5^th sem, in which I did study a bit, n atleast assed all d sessionals. The placement activities wer soon goin to start, n quite a few ppl around me hd begun preparing fr them too…. I ver well knew the consequences of nt studying fr these pprs, bt still dnt kno y , nvr studied fr them!!! First ws a seminar kinda thing which our seniors gave, to tell us hw to go abt the placement preparation n related stuff.

Then one fine day, 7^th march ws d date…. while comin back ome frm a PI session at IMS I gt d news dat HCL is comin on d 13^th of march….. the following ws d mail ::

On your mark.... Get set... and the "go" is on the 13th Mar. HCL technologies is coming for a campus placement on the13th of Mar. The tests will be held at MAIT (Maharaja Agrasen). The minimum eligibility criteria for the exam is the score above 65% though out from 10th, 12th to the 5th SEM currently. Other details will be sent as soon as they are made available by the TPO office. Best of luck!!

some wer excited, some wer tensed, som jus dint hd ne reaction… n I,. dunno y ws a bit tensed…. !!! Whereas I somehow hd a sense dat I wont get thru!!! n neither did I prepared for it… our seniors also took a mock test two days before the actual one. Before the day HCL ws to come, I dint hv ne formals , so went to buy some clothes, dis one hell of a busy day…. I had a 4 hour class at IMS in d morning, then went to buy . On the morning of 13^th, wid new clothes n few copies of my resume I reach agrasen in d morning. It was unusually chilly in d morning , wid foggy weather, fr dat time of the year. The written exam began……. twas an apti n a technical test. After v gave d ppr, we wated the whole day there fr d result….. n we all had fun ther, wid all our foolish jokes n all. Around 4-5 in d evening the result of d written test ws announced……. evry1 tensed… As the names wer announced, quite a few frm our class made it thru the written… n many dint.. me in d latter group. The disappointment ws there to be seen on som ppl’s faces…. Bt it wasn’t newhere on my face….. as I reached home, mom asked abt d result, n I said “NAHI HUA.. WRITTEN MEIN BAHAR”…. n mom said “KOI BAAT NAHI, ABHI TO BAHUT AANI HAI” later in d evening dad came back n asked, n I said “NAHI HUA… WRITTEN MEIN BAHAR”.. the dad gave a bit of advice n dat ws it. Still ther wasn’t much disappointment…. bt slowly the disappointment ws starting to come…… the realization dat it was one opportunity lost ws starting to show… the mood ws saddening. Then came d news dat samrat hd also cleared d written, bt none of us cud listen his name… n so he also came back home wid us, bt then he ws informed dat his name ws also there n then he hd to rush back frm munirka to rohini on his bike. He barely managed to reach there on time, n he also cleared d GD. I ws happy fr him…. Bt at d same time d disappointment of nt making thru hd nw starting 2 show on me. The mood dipped a it….. bt only a bit mind u. After a few days after d interviews, d results wer announced n SIX frm our class got selected, Samrat, Saurabh, Deep Priya, Sanchit, Vijay Bahadur n Ashish Marwah. It was party time fr us….. d first frm our gang hd gt selected. We hd a small party in d canteen…. N it turned out to b quite bad wid a fight resulting between us n a few seniors ovr som nonsense stuff, wont go in all those details, dat incident is better forgotten.

The Placement Story- 2 of 7

2006-10-08T09:19:00.000+05:30

Now, ws d time fr d next one to come… evry one waited… it ws to be Sapient on 9^th april… TPO told us dat dis ws d golden goose…… it paid well, it hd a gud company profile, n moreover it was also in NCR. So , everyone prepared hard for dis one. First ws d written test, n boy wat a test it was….. it was cheating galore… every1 cheated, moreover evry1 knew of d question beforehand, coz they wer available all over d net. I cheated too…. I guess dat ws 1^st time after my 9^th class dat I had cheated…. The guilt of cheating started to creep in as time passed after d written test ws ovr… it sounds stupid in todays age, bt dats hw I am. I wished dat I dnt gt thru d written. The results of d written test were announced on 20^th april, n d ppl at sapient wer annoyed wid d results of d written…. they hd made out dat evry1 cheated.. they even took a few examples to show d amount of cheatin dat had been done in d test… the examples they took wer ME n ROHIT… it hurt me, seriously it hurt. When I got to kno dat MUKUL n a few more wer nt able to clear d written then it hurt more. Mukul especially hd prepared hard for dis one.He couldn’t clear d first round itself, whereas they cleared almost 85% students fr d second round, the feeling of guilt ws growing inside me. At one stage I even thot of fcuking up d interview myself… bt then decided otherwise. The interviews wer supposed to be held on 22^nd in our college… I decided I wil prepare fr d interview , n wud giv dis one wid all honesty. The second round started at 5:00.. first ws d written, two questions wer asked n fr d first time in my life I made a C++ program all by myself… then came d time fr d interview. Before my interview procedure began, I already knew dat they hd selected quite a few ppl frm d one’s those who wer interviewed… but one major disappointment ws dat of Nasir… a programming champ like Nasir couldn’t gt thru sapient. So , after givin my written I waited fr the panelist to come. While waiting fr him to come, the mood inside the waiting room ws jolly as usual… wid me n rohit both doing d usual nonsense talk…. mind it was jus 2 ease d tension around us. While waiting sam came out after his interview n told us dat he gt selected….. so it was 2 out of 2 fr him.. he hd to b selected here, C++ ws his forte . Soon rohit ws called , n then me… This ws d first ever interview I faced in my life. As v wer goin to the room, he started wid his questions… d first one ws “u being an electronics engg , y do u want 2 join a software company?” It was like a bomb dropped on me…. dis ws my first ever interview n dint kno hw to answer dis one. I fumbled a bit then somehow answered him… then he began wid the real stuff. He opened my answer sheet n started asking frm d program I had made… it went smooth till som time, then slowly started making things a bit tough fr me. After abt 30 min or so he stopped suddenly n told me “ Pushpret I dnt think there is any reason y dis interview shud b taken forward” he hd gauged my grip at programming… n d whole interview procedure ended in abt 30 min flat.. no HR , nothing … he hd told me on my face dat I wasn’t gud enough for Sapient… This ws d worst possible way my first ever interview cud hv gone. As I walked back slowly, evry1 asked , hw ws it?.. I had failed… dat too miserably. It all went wrong . I dint even went to d room where my result ws to be announced formally, coz I knew wat d result was.. As I stood there wid samrat fr Rohit to come… d disappointment hd started to show on my face, n wen I saw d list of selected students , d disappointment grew many folds. Sapient hd done mass recruitment, the hd selected almost 50 students jus frm our college… n d feeling dat I couldn’t even make thru dis one ws more than mere disappointment. Soon Rohit came, he ws lookin quite confident… btw wen his rslt was announced he was shocked… he dint made it thru. Now we three made our way back home. Rohit n sam went their way n I went mine. I came on car dat day, n while goin back home I remember dat 5 min drive back home… it ws terrible. I ws disappointed to say the least. I dnt kno y , bt my hopes hd risen wen I reached college dat day, n then the rejection ws quite hard to swallow… this my first real brush wid d feeling of rejection…it ws tuff time. As I reached home, mom asked abt d result n I said “NAHI HUA” then talked to amitesh , who called to enquire abt d result, n then called Avnit (agrasen dude) , to tell him abt my interview xperience as his ws on a llater date, I guess it ws on d next day only.. then jus went inside n slept, dint talked to anybody much n jus slept. Mom still had encouraging words, she said “KOI BAAT NAHI, ABHI TO BAHUT AANI HAI”. Then I jus slept.. when I waked up d next morning , there ws dis strange sort of feeling , which I dnt think cud b explained easily… it ws bad really bad… almost 20 students frm our class hd been placed dat day, n I wasn’t one of those. Then I taked to rohit dat day, n he hd an even worse story to tell… wont write it here though

The Placement Story- 3 of 7

2006-10-08T09:17:00.000+05:30

Slowly , the disappointment died down, n life came back to normal… clg began again, n dis time I made myself busy wid d practical files n stuff as the final practicals wer nearing. The next one ws to be Syntel.. in Greater Noida. We hd to reach there early as we wer told dat d reporting time ws at 8 in d morning. We pooled in went in cars, we left at 6 in d morning n reached there half an hour before time. This tme around d ppl frm our clg wer a little less , to be exact they wer 51 less… We found out dat d name of our college wasn’t there in d list of invited colleges.. we wer told to wait outside. This day ws goin to b a long day!! We wer at a place where there ws hard to find even a gud place to eat. Around 11 am we wer aloud to enter d college, bt ther wer no signs still of our test to be taken.. it ws hot like anything that day. Now began what ws to b a hot n tiring day…. oops, not tiring!!! D truth is dat, it was one hell of a day, wid all the chatting n stuff we did dat day… it turned out to be more of a day out wid frnz…. Finally around 5 in d evening…. v got an idea to click some snaps….. n these pics turned out to be the first one in d series of MANY MORE to come. Anything I may say, that we had lots of fun dat day at NIET grounds, but somewhere down in our hearts, ws d feeling dat v wer d ones who couldn’t make it thru SAPIENT, d one which turned out to b d simplest of all to clear, bt somehow no1 talked about it barring a few instances. This ws d first time dat d inferior complex hd started to show…. Till nw it ws nothing compared to wat ws about to come LATER!!!!!!! Around 6 in d evening , finally our test ws taken…. n we went home after dat, only to b told mid way in our journey back home dat, no1 frm our clg gt selected.. it somehow dint hurt. When I reached home , all tired n broken, mom asked abt d result n I said, “NAHI HUA”… “kissi ka bhi nahi hua hamaare clg mein se”… trying to put stress on d fact dat no1 got selected n I wsnt d only one to be kicked dis time around….. then came d reply “KOI BAAT NAHI, ABHI TO BAHUT AANI HAI”.

Syntel , dint manage to leave an imapact like any of the other companies dat came till then… dis ws d end of d placement activities in clg before our end term pprs. The ppr started and went d way they always go…. badddddd…. Maybe bad than the previous semesters… dunno y, bt it all started to fall apart here in these pprs… it ws d beginning of a long list of bad things those wer to come.. I wont blame anybody fr d way d pprs went, it was simply dat I dint study at all, n u dnt expect to pass wid flying colours by studying only a night fr each ppr in d whole semester, n my internals weren’t nything to cheer about either. Exams ended on 26^th, n v wer told dat ACCENTURE wud b comin on 28^th may. Accenture v wer told ws one of d best companies to visit our campus. On d 27^th ws d sapient exam fr some 20 students, which sapient dint took earlier, coz of some reasons best known to them only. Amitesh, khatri, ankush n deep priya frm our class wer to giv d exam dat day… deep priya n khatri got thru dat day n amitesh n ankush couldn’t. While chatting wid amitesh dat day, I cud very well make out wat he ws goin thru at dat time, as I had experienced it all before myself also. While talking wid him dat day I said something to him wat I thot ws d truth n I also feared d most. After seeing wat happened at sapient, the no. of students they took frm our clg , I hd realized dat we had d best chance at sapient… n now d next wer to be accenture…. Coz it ws visiting our college, n d other one to be INFOSYS…. Coz it ws d only company which doesn’t take any technical test, which I considered my weak point. So, I told amitesh, rather to put it aptly…. I stated it to him dat if I couldn’t get thru these two companies then I wont b able to get thru any. Next day ws accenture, 28^th may.. yet again v all arrived there in d clg, all happy n laughing….. d motto which many say, can help u gt past all the hurdles in LIFE. Again I arrived there wid almost NIL preparation. The day for me dint began on a good note…. Hd a fight at home wid mom n dad over some silly reason…. may be I nvr ws in a good mood dat day at home before leaving fr clg. I reached clg n the day there began wid d ppt of d company n then the written.. while in d ppt room we clicked some pics , jus to continue wat began at syntel… jus to keep d memories f d golden days of our lifes wid us. After d written ws over we waited fr d result, n when it was announced I had cleared d written…. more than happy I ws tensed, as d next round ws GD n i ws tensed abt it…. after dat I ws in d gd room n doing GD…. D GD went quite good, nt as bad as I had expected it to be n d results wer announced then n there only… I ws kicked out of d gd… I ws kindaa waiting fr a pleasant surprise to come my way after d GD ws completed bt it ws never to be…. I dint hd d power to walk back home . Almost all my frnds hd cleared d GD n wer waiting fr their turn for interviews, n I ws there waiting outside, sitting on the stairs of d college , doing some self inspection… n talking to myself.. after d fight at home in d morning, I ws kindaa scared of facing mom n dad at home. After waisting for about an hour in d college only , I reached home…… n then dad asked abt d result… n I said “NAHI HUA, GD MEIN BAHAR”… then dad said… “CHALO , KOI BAAT NAHI”… then mom came n asked n I said “NAHI HUA, GD MEIN BAHAR”… I ws slowly getting used to saying this line after evry exam. I cud see d disappointment on d face of mom ,bt she dint say nething to me n jus said “KOI BAAT NAHI, ABHI TO AUR BAHUT AAYENGI”. Then I slept , dint even eat my lunch…. later dat evening , when I woke up, I enquired abt d results of d rest… d interviews wer goin on at dat time… I knew dat I hd let go another golden opportunity. The atmosphere at home wasn’t to good… n I cud sense it easily. In the evening , when goin to market wid mom in car, all I remember is a steering wheel in my hand and an accelerator on d floor of d car. It ws d worst ever I had driven… 60+ in d tight colony streets…. Mom ws angry like anything wid me, I had found something to vent m frustration upon, n mom dint liked it at all.. she forced me to return home mid way… n give me a earful. Nothing ws turning out right for me…. it seemed like everything dat cud go wrong in my LIFE ws goin wrong, n I had only myself to blame for all this. Later I gt d news dat rohit, arun n samrat couldn’t get thru d first round of interviews…. I met them on messenger dat night. All wer sad…. Amitesh had cleared d first round of interviews so had chirag. I wished amitesh all the best n went off to sleep. D next thing I remember ws waking in d morning, n finding out dat Amitesh hd cleared accenture n so had 48 other from our college. I congratulated him.. n d next thing I rmbr I dat I ws goin into something deep… a deep depression. Nothing ws goin right. I then congratulated all those who cleaed the interviews, n tried to get over it…. another major disappointment of the day ws Nasir. He ws one of d select few to be rejected in d technical interviews, which wer conducted late night. I tried my best to get over d disappointment, n I think I succeeded to an extent, although I knew , wat I had missed.

The Placement Story- 4 of 7

2006-10-08T09:05:00.000+05:30

Now, the summer holidays had begun…. these weren’t exactly holidays for me… but fr d ones who had been placed, these wer to be d best holidays of there 4 rs… atleast this ws wat I thot. At IMS almost everybody around me hd been placed, n they wer all told to concentrate solely on CAT preparations. I ju said to myself dat, once dis placement stuff gets over, I wud then think about CAT. Slowly, d depression of accenture faded away. All around I cud see stuff, which I never thot I wud see. I don’t kno if it was jus my imagination… bt somhing hd changed, a lot had changed. Ppl had changed, ofcourse it doesn’t goes fr all of the ppl who h been placed. It all taught me a lesson… hw to behave when som ppl around u r nt goin thru d best of times… n how not to!!! I sincerely hope, it was all my imagination… n now I think it really ws my imagination, I HOPE I AM RIGHT. Then there wer som over generous ppl, jus trying to show dat they care… the inferiority complex ws starting to creep in now, it really was. I may say anything here, bt one truth ws dat I still wasn’t studying… even though I knew I had to, there wer no two ways about it. There wer som frnz, whom I tried to cheer up, even though I wsnt in d best of moods myself…. I tried to put up a smile on my face, when I ws feeling d pain deep inside me too of nt getting thru. The next company to come was to be Birla Soft…. at NIEC shahdra….left home dat day very early, somehow managed to reach there on time… slowly d strength of ppl comin to give d exams ws reducing….. n after seeing d numbers getting lesser, d inferiority complex started to grow again… only a select few hd remained now. After d written results wer announced, only a select few hd got thru the written round, Nasir ws one of them. I dint get thru d written. This time around, I may say the disappointment wasn’t that much, if I compare it wid wat it ws after sapient n accenture. When I reached home, mom asked abt d result n I said “NAHI HUA, WRITTEN MEIN BAHAR”, n then she said “KOI BAAT NAHI, ABHI TO AUR BAHUT AAYENGI”… later in d evening I gt d news dat Nasir couldn’t clear d GD…. I ws seriously disappointed fr Nasir, he deserved better… I cud hv been placed in d undeserving list, but certainly not Nasir, he ws much more deserving than many who had gt placed. I dnt kno if Nasir rmbrs it, bt dat day in d evening while talking wid him, I tried to cheer him up n showed him a ray of hope… I told him dat MBT ws still to come n it hd one of d best package to offer…. n also infosys ws still to come. In between all this placement stuff, my summer training ws also going on at SBI wid amitesh n lokender… I tried to take heart from d fact dat Birla Soft dint took any of the students, it was sort of a thing which I used as a shield, to protet myself frm the failure which came my way… I tried to run away from the reality dat I WAS NOT SELECTED, n it was infact another faliure The next company to come was I-Flex at agrasen… on 11^th june. After giving the written exam in d morning, we waited for d result of d written till afternoon, meanwhile we started doing wat we wer starting to make a habit of…… clicking pictures in every placement ppr. Later dat evening , the results of d written ws announced…. my name ws yet again in the familiar territory, in the rejected lis…. So ws d name of several others…… barring three from our class.. vishal , nasir n ankit. Rohit n pradeep’s name ws not in the rejected list nor the selected one.. they had to wait for another day n go to agrasen again the next day. Finally they wer told dat they wer not selected… at d same time the results of the interviews wer also announced of nasir , vishal n ankit ….. none had managed to clear d interviews…. Nasir again had faltered in d interview….. he had managed to clear almost all the written pprs, bt had faltered at d interviews… due to sheer bad luck if nt anything else… n m sure it ws nothing more than that. His time, after listening to my name in d rejected list, n of several others… the disappointment ws there to be seen on d faces of everyone, bt all tried to put on dat fake smile on their face n just shouted… AGLI KAB HAI YAAR. While going home dat night, after d result of I-flex……. Somehow d mood dipped again, bt again d disappointment ws tere, bt I tried to hide myself behind d reason dat, agrasen ppl hd cheated …. They hd cleared almost evry1 frm their clg, n failed d rest!!!! Or may be it ws jus my imagination, jus trying to find an excuse for another failure… bt the truth ws dat I had been REJECTED again… the rejection tag ws starting to stick on me… wen I reached home, dad asked abt d result n I said “NAHI HUA, WRITTEN MEIN BAHAR”….. n then dad said, “ KOI BAAT NAHI”.. mom ws nt at home that day.. she dint enquire abt d result… as she knew dat hd I cleared, then I must hv told her it by myself. Wen dad asked abt d result, I took shade behind d reason dat agrasen ppl cheated, n wasn’t d only one to be rejected and they had selected only a few ppl…. Now I think dat I ws wrong, I ws afraid to face failure, dats y I looked fr excuses!!! Then the wait fr d next company began….. allt his time wat happened ws, chatting on msngr wid frnz, laughin wid each other, wid evry1 trying hard to put a smile on their face n nt showing d disappointment……. training ws goin on as usual. Sometimes we chatted wid each other… trying to buck up each other, n jus trying to tell ourselves dat, “U WONT KNO D MEANING OF BLISS, IF U NEVER KNEW WAT SORROW WAS”… n I ws jus telling myself dat… “HAPPINESS IS D KEY TO SUCCESS, ITS NOT D OTHER WAY ROUND”…. Till now no more placements had taken place in my frnd circle… bt dis time at I-Flex Avnit got placed in I-Flex(agrasen dude)…. now after seeing dat quite a few around me had been placed, mom once even told me dat “PEHLI MUJHE TERI KOI TENSION NAHI THI, MAGAR AB THODI BAHUT HO RAHI HAI….. SAARON KI HO GAYI HAI PLACEMENT, TU REH GAYA” then she added.. “KOI BAAT NAHI, ABHI TO TUMHARI CLASS K BHI BAHUT REHTE HAIN…… SABKI HO JAYEGI”…. sometimes jus to give her some satisfaction I used to tell her dat companies keep coming on till the final semester n I ws still in d 6^th semester… so there ws plenty much time left, n moreover I cud also apply from outside d clg to different companies…. Bt somewhere deep inside me I knew, dat I ws jus trying to relieve her of some tension , nothing more… Now, negative thots hd started coming inside my mind… I once told amitesh dat “during the summer holidays most of our group, almost all, wud be placed…. the ones who wer left now wil b placed in infosys… n I will b d only one left unplaced” ..

The Placement Story- 5 of 7

2006-10-08T09:04:00.000+05:30

The wait for the next company ws growing….. everyday mom used to ask “AGLI COMPANY KAB AA RAHI HAI”… finally infosys ws fixed… it ws to visit MAIT on 14^th july…. Dis time I knew dat dis ws my last chance n dat too d best one!!! Many had told me dat its only d written of infosys dat matters… rest, d HR interview is a mere formality… they select almost all of d ppl who clear the written exam… they jus need aptitude, rest they know dat they can teach us how to work. Moreover, I also used to think dat technical interview n GD ws my weak point n I cud clear d HR interview easily. Even dad one day said to me “BETA INFOSYS KI TAYAARI ACHHI TARHA SE KARLO, AGAR ISME HO JAYE TO IS SE BETTER AUR KUCH NAHI”… d pressure on me ws only increasing. So, keeping all dis in mind, I started preparing fr d INFOSYS written…. I wont say dat I prepared extremely hard fr dis ppr, bt still more than wat I had prepared for any else… I did some questions from shakuntla devi’s buk… meanwhile we wer informed dat, satyam will also b visiting our campus, the very next day after infosys i.e. 15^th july.. another news dat came ws dat the students who had already been placed wil also be allowed to sit in d ppr. To be honest, I ws furious like anything after hearing dis news… bt still I hd a feeling dat, if I had to b placed in infy than all these things wont matter…. I thot dat my chances wer still d same, if only unplaced students wer to be allowed…. at d same time a mail frm a student of IT came, asking d ppl who hd been placed not to sit fr d infosys exam…. Wat dat guy ws trying ws to show his generosity… n he did it wid gud intentions… bt dis somehow made d inferiority complex in me grow more…. I kno I ws wrong dis time, bt I couldn’t help bt think dis way, the frustration ws only growing. A day before , trust me, I ws 100% sure dat rohit ws goin to crack infosys…. I even told dis to him on phone, dnt kno if he rmbrs it or not. On the morning of 14^th july, I ws nervous like anything, I knew dis ws d golden chance… I hd to grab it somehow… the written exam ended…. I ws quite satisfied wid wat I had done in d exam. We all waited fr d result of d written…. wen d result of d written exam ws announced, I had cleared d written…. mann I ws relieved to hear dat.. 7 pl frm my class had cleared d written exam--- Me, Rohit, Khera, Neha Sinha, Chawla, Shivam n Vishal… as much as I ws relieved to hear myself clearing d written, a d same time I dint kno hw to react wid other ppl who hd nt… arun, nasir, ankit, ankush, mukul…etc.. Now, I knew it ws an opportunity thrown in my hands… I jus had to grab it…. it was d sort of cance dat I ws looking for.Moreover, wid d knowledge dat d interview ws a mere formality, n d rejection rate in d interview ws very minimal… only the ones wid extremely poor HR skills wer thrown out in d interviews… dis seemed to grow my confidence a bit, as I always thot dat I cud clear d HR interview, bt nt d GD n tech interview. All 7 of us wer waiting in d conference hall fr our turn for d interview.. d mood in d conference hall ws kindaa relaxed, rather I shud say we made it luk like dat… d usual jokes doin the rounds. But in between we also prepared, how we wud introduce ourselves, n jus tried to rehearse d answers fr som typical questions… one by one, everyone left d conference room for d interview… d anxiety in me ws gowing. Finally it was my turn… d place outside d interview room where I ws waitin ws extremely hot.. I began to sweat… may be d sweat ws jus coz of d tension!! Finally Shivam came out of d room n I ws called inside…. jus at d time Rohit came out frm d other room. I tried to b at my best, I knew wat importance these 15 minutes had for me. I entered d room n greeted d interviewer…. he ws a guy in his late 30’s , dressed neatly in a sky blue shirt… d interview began d way I had expected it to.. I ws asked to introduce myself… I began… d interview went quite smoothly, with a hick-up or two, otherwise it was quite ok.. it ended in 15 minutes flat. After leaving dat room, I ws feeling mighty relieved… reaching outside, I chatted wid d rest n heard their experience. Everyone’s interview hd gone quite well… I cud sense d feeling of getting placed at dis time… interview hd gone quite well, n I ws expecting to clear dis one… we all , 5 of us , khera, rohit, shivam, vishal n me went to a nearby shop to eat something.. wen we wer goin there I met Avnir, he asked abt my interview n assured me dat d interview here ws jus a formality n my selection ws almost certain, then I went away frm there to d shop….. While chatting , everyone ws tense abt d result, bt we all tried to be normal… we knew dat , the very next day satyam ws comin to d campus.. I once said dat “I KNO DAT TOMORROW I HV NO CHANCE, THIS IS A GOLDEN CHANCE AT INFOSYS, N IF I COULDN’T MAKE IT THRU, I WUD B BROKEN to say d least”.. also we wer asking each other dat wud we b comin tomorrow if v wer to b placed tonight… it was 7 in d evening.. soon v reached back clg… n waited outside. Mom called frm home, I told her dat I hd cleared d written n ws waiting fr d result of my interview… she said to me, “AAJ MUJHE LAG RAHA HAI KI TERA HO JAYEGA, ALL THE BEST” n then she hung the phone….. soon sms enquiring abt d rslt starting to come in, I repied to them, dat v wer waitin fr d result…. We wer sitting on the stais, waiting fr d rslt n thot of clicking som pictures… this pics later turmed out to b one of d best those wer clicked by us…. The ones dat wer clicked in front of d fountain, on d stairs… in strange pose… n strange faces… we all wer a happy bunch out there at dat moment… then we wer relaxing on d stairs in front of the administrative block, when rohti told me “BAS AAJ PLACEMENT HO JAYE, BAHUT RELIEF MILEGI….. KUSH TO HUM ROZ HI REHTE HAIN, BAS AAJ SAR PE SE BAHUT BADA BOJ HAT JAYEGA”… n I nodded in agreement, Suddenly a guy came out of d building , he had d results in his hand…. all of us rushed towards him in all anxiousness n excitement… rohit saw a list in his hand which had d names of three ppl…. He thot dat they hd selected only 3… it later turned out dat those three wer asked to come again… they infact had selected 20 out of the 28 students… he started to take out names… chawla, vishal, shivam, neha, khera n rohit… evry1’s name ws announced…. I cud see relief on the faces of all four who wer present there(khera, rohit, shivam, vishal), specially rohit, vishal n shivam… for whom it ws their first placement n had come after a long struggle… I ws still waiting fr my name to be announced… soon d list ended, my name wasn’t there in d list…I was the only one from our class to b rejected, THE ODD ONE OUT… to say dat I ws broken wud b an understatement…. I turned away, n stood in a corner alone close to crying…. infact I ws.. jus d tears wer nt coming. Then came rohit, he put his hand on my shoulder n told me to inform at home… soon came vishal, shivam n khera… n told me to keep heart… I ws shattered. While walking towards d car, evry1 ws happy… n cheerful, then I cud see rohit trying to tell others to keep calm, without letting me know… I switched off my phone then… I wasn nt in d position of talking to anybody or reply to any queries abt d result.. soon we wer in d car n goin towards our home…. There ws dis strange silence in d car… no1 uttered a single word throughout d journey…. n d feeling dat others wer nt able to njoy there mment of glory jus coz of me dint help much!!! We then dropped rohit, vishal n shivam in the way n moved ahead…. Later khera told me to keep heart, he told me dat atleast I cleared d written, which many others dint managed n told me to take heart frm dat, bt it ws no solace for me…. wat mattered ws d end result. Khera dropped me at rajouri garden… I took a bus frm there n went home…. After getting off at d bus stop n wen walking towards home… I broke down, jus couldn’t control myself. I tried to calm myself down as I entered my house. Dad opened d door, n d first thing he asked me in all excitement ws “KYA HUA”…n I said “NAHI HUA, INTERVIEW MEIN BAHAR”… i hd got sick of giving d same answer again n again… he said “CHALO KOI BAAT NAHI” n then he went away disappointed… then mom came n I gav her d same answer, n told her dat rohit n vishal gt selected, I cud c d disappointment on her face dat slowly everyone around ws getting selected n I ws d only one left…. Then she asked abt ankush n arun, n I said they cudnnt clear d written… she then told me “ABHI HAIN NA WO BHI, HO JAYEGA SAARON KA, UNKA BHI AUR TERA BHI” .... dis time round her answer ws different than wat it ws earlier.... she knew dat there wer nt many oppurtunities left to come..... I changed n went to bed immediately … again while changing, I jus couldn’t face myself in d mirror… I broke down again.. dis time badly…. n then jus slept..

Next day ws Satyam, I woke up in d morning… put on d formals once again… I ws tired of wearing formals now… I ws starting to hate these clothes, bt nonetheless had to do it. Reached clg, n met everybody, all those who wer selected in infy, also came to attend d dis ppr as it was made compulsory fr them coz they hd to … the day began wid d ppt n then d written exam… I wasn’t in d best of shape mentally to giv d exam, I must admit.. I dint feel like attempting d ppr…. Soon we wer waiting fr d result of d written , I cleared d written again…. n then waited fr d GD… the GD began, I still wasn’t feeling in d best of shape mentally…. Sat in d gd room, n uttered only a word or two… then we all waited fr d result of d GD, wid evry1 happy n smiling, n I ws trying to keep up wid them all… putting a fake smile on my face n trying to crack a joke or two… soon d result of d GD ws announced. I ws rejected again…. I dint hd d courage to face mom n dad again, so I switched off my cell, n dint go home immediately after d result ws announced. Me, ankit n Rohit sat in d corridor… Rohit ws trying his best to tell us dat still there wer many more companies to come….. he even told dat infy wud b comin again to visit d campus in d final sem, as we cud sit again fr infy after 9 months. As we wer sittin there, our clg seniors wer sitting in d corridor… all of them placed, except one… KK.. suddenly a shiver went down my spine… I saw myself in d same place after one year… Then ankit went home, rohit told me to go home, bt I really dint hd d courage to go back home again n face mom n dad. So I stayed in clg…. n waited fr d final rslts… Feeling sleepy n tired, I sat there on a chair in d seminar hall…. wondering wat went wrong at infy…. I dint hv an answer…. Finally around 6:30 in d evening, d results of d interviews wer announced… Arun, , Ankush, Vishal, Nidhi got selected in satyam… two placements in two days for vishal, n first ones for the rest…. I congratulated them n then left college after dat fr home…. Now almost everybody in our grp had been placed…. barring a select few… which included Nasir, ME and Ankit… I reached home… n then mom asked me, y I had switched off my phone… she probably knew why… I dint answer her… then she asked. “KYA HUA RESULT”… n then I said.. “NAHI HUA, GD MEIN BAHAR”… she then asked ”KIS-KIS KA HUA”.. I said.. “ARUN AUR ANKUSH HO GAYE SELECT” … she said ”TUMHARE GRP MEIN SAARON KA HO GAYA AB”, I said “HAAN”… “CHALO KOI NAHI TERA BHI HO JAYEGI, BAAKIYON KI BHI HO GAYI NA… BAAKI SAARON KI HO JAYEGI” …… I wondered who all now came in “BAAKI SAARE”…. I ws nt in a modd to talk at dat time… my mom sensed it.. she said “SEEKH BHAI SE KUCH , WO BILKUL TENSION NAHI LETA, EKDUM KHUSH… TU HAI KI CHOTI CHOTI BAATON KI TENSION LE KAR BAITHA REHTA HAI…. IS SE MUJHE BHI TENSION HOTI HAI”…. I still had no words… n jus wen she went away, I broke down again… third time in 2 days, d feeling of being alone in a crowd is certainly not a gud one…. . I switched on d PC, n started uploading d pics, of all d placement pprs, which I had got in my phone… as I was uploading them, Rohit called, he knew wat I ws going thru… I dint talked wid him much, n jus told him dat I ws uploading d pics… n hung up d fone. Wen I hd uploaded all d fotos… d fotos wer all amazing, they represented the perfect us… always happy n laughing!!! Later dat night, after dinner, dad asked me to tell him how did I do GD… I couldn’t tell him… then he told me dat I dint speaked clearly… he started giving me a lecture on hw to speak while an interview… it ws pinful for me.. then he told me to bring a newspaper n read the editorial column loud…. his point was dat it wud help me increase my knowledge base, which in turn wud help me out in GD n also wud improve my communication skills… I hesitated a bit before reading… n objected to it too… bt somehow started reading… while reading it, I wondered , had I hd gt selected in Infosys the other day.. I might not hv been forced to see dis moment. It was one of d lowest, if nt d lowest, moment of my life so far… suddenly, I threw away d newspaper, broke down yet again… fourth time in 2 days, n ran out of d house. Dad came after me n then told me dat… whatever he ws doing ws fr my good only… he ws right, bt it was extremely painful for me.. then he sat wid me n asked me to sit on the PC n look fr sites, which gave interview tips…. he asked me too read all of them… the day ended, n I went of to sleep….

Next day, dad had to go on a tour for a week…. he left early morning.. I missed IMS for yet another day, jus dint felt like going anywhere, n certainly not IMS. Later in d evening I jus thot of running away frm all the madness here at home… so I told mom dat I m leaving fr chandigarh, to my grand parents next morning… she agreed, she knew y I ws saying so, she knew I ws feeling suffocated here. So, next morning i.e. 17^th july , I left fr chandigarh at 5 am… without informing anyone, jus informed one or two ppl, so dat I come to kno if anymore companies are coming. In the evening, around 7 pm , while I ws in Mohali, at my grandparents house, mom called n told me dat d result of sixth semester had come.. avnit told her. She dint knew abt my result as yet. Then I enquired abt it frm frnz abt my result, I had a backlog in Microwave….. very soon bro sent me an sms telling me dat I hd a backlog in one subject, n exact 50 in two others…. It ws d 3^rd bomb dat had exploded on me in the past 4 days…. I ws passing thru one of d worst phase of my LIFE. Everything seemd to go wrong, not dat it was unexpected, bt d fact dat it all came together in a bunch, seemed to hit jus a bit harder. I was shattered… everything that cud go wrong, went wrong. When there in Punjab, I went to d house of any relative, evry1 enquired abt hw wer d placements in clg goin on…. I simply had no answer… rather , I jus dint wanted to answer any of those queries. Every1 I met, asked “PLACEMENT HO GAYI ?”.. I jus said “NO” wid a fake smile in my face, as if it wer still early days in placement, n there wer still lots of opportunities left… bt d fact ws completely opposite..

The Placement Story- 6 of 7

2006-10-08T09:02:00.000+05:30

Soon, I gt d news dat Tech Mahindra wud b visiting MAIT on 26^th july.. so I rushed back frm there to home on 24^th, so dat I cud prepare a bit fr d ppr… . On the morning of 26^th I left home wearing those clothes, which I ws now beginning to hate like anything… while goin there, it suddenly started raingin heavily… on d way to clg I ws almost drenched in water… my clothes wer all wet, I ws feeling like hd I been selected dat day in infy , I may nt hv had to see all this… I jus couldn’t manage to get d failure at infosys get out of my head… d date 14^th july had somehow managed to leave a huge impact on me… n also those 4 days, 14^th 15^th 16^th n 17th wer all that wer needed to destroy me completely… it came like a tsunami … n left wid only destruction behind it. Tech Mahindra…. Ws one of the last of d gud companies which visits our clg.. I knew it .. so d pressure it generated on me ws also enormous… they conducted there written, exam… I managed to clear it… I ws making a habit of clearing d written now… Ankush, nasir, pradeep n nasir also managed to clear d written. Immediately after the written, they started wid there interviews… Nasir ws d first one to go in…. I ws waiting outside d room… it ws a technical interview, so it made me a lot more tense… n it ws showing on my face, as ws remarked by quite a few ppl standing there. As nasir came out , I entered d room… d interview ws nothing short of a disaster… I managed to tell him d logic of a C++ program which he asked n also an analytical question which he asked, bt wasn’t able to tell him anything else… he started by asking me the definitions.. I ws totally confused n jus gave up. I wasn’t able to clear d interview…. D result ws told to me immediately after d interview. Ankush, Nasir n pradeep hd managed to clear d technical interview bt not chirag. When I ws leaving fr home frm d clg…. yet again 14^th july struck me.. there wasn’t any technical interviews there.. dat ws my chance, n I dropped it. One more thing 14^th july managed ws, dat I had a notion dat I ws gud in HR… bt that ws proven wrong.. horribly wrong, my confidence hd hit d lowest. Wen I left college, it ws still drizzling… I walked a kilometer atleast in d rain.. n then took an auto till d main road… n frm there gt on a bus n reached home… as I entered mom asked “KYA HUA”… I said. “NAHI HUA, INTERVIEW MEIN BAHAR”.. she said “KOI BAAT NAHI”.. .. end of story!!! Later I gt d news dat Nasir, pradeep n ankush hd made it thru… I jus cant say it in words how happy I ws fr Nasir… fr a moment I almost forgot d fact dat I had failed again… nasir hd gone thru a tough time… d sort of I ws witnessing now..

Soon, the fact dat I ws one of the very few who wer left unplaced.. started playing on my mind…. where almost all wer looking ahead to d college opening after d holidays, there I ws afraid to go to clg, I ws afraid of getting lost there… I ws afraid of facing d truth. Evrything I did in d past three years except studies, started to look as if ws d reason behind d situation I ws standing in now… d question wat if I had done dis, wat if I had done dis?? started to come to my mind again and again… mom hd already told me dat internet ws one reason fr the backlog dat I hd got.. I ws trying to get away frm all d luxuries I hd ben given to me by my parents… everything looked as if ws a burden on my parents coz of me… d feeling of d being “d rejected one” ws growing inside me. I tried to distance myself frm all the luxuries I had got… I reduced d time I spent on PC drastically…. reduced d use of cellphone, stopped watching TV as much…. Everything ws looking like it ws a burden on my parents due to me… I started looking myself as a burden.. my self esteem took a hit.. I kno dis ws very much an over-reaction… bt dis is d way I am… d inferiority complex had grown in me… My mind ws filled wid all the negative thots u cud imagine in d mind of a depressed person….. Then I remeberd wat I once told amitesh… it all had come true!!!! The holidays wer almost over… nasir ws placed in Tech Mahindra (I told dis to amitesh b4 tech mahindra visited)… rest had been placed in infosys… exactly wat I had told him… n also I was still unplaced… exactly wat I had said… some may say dat , it was d result of d negative thots dat I had grown in me… .bt d fact is dat I kno myself inside out… wat I think doesn’t effect d way I work!!! i.e I may think negatively, I may b a peimist bt dis really doesn’t effect d way I work… dis is d way I am, n I need no-one’s stamp of approval on dis…. I AM WAT I AM!!!

The Placement Story-7 of 7

2006-10-08T09:01:00.000+05:30

College opened on d 1^st of august…. I reached clg on time… wid a draft of 50,000 in my hand… I still had nt paid d fees… it ws looking even more of a burden to me. I reached clg wid a smile on my face… never mind a fake one… tried cracking a joke or two… n even went to watch a movie d very first day… all dat ws a farce jus to show dat all ws well… where it certainly wasn’t.. Whenever I saw, d smiles on d faces of others.. the only thing dat came to my mind ws dat….. hd I also been placed, things might hv been different wid me…. I kno dis certainly wasn’t d way I shud hv thot, butt I jus couldn’t help it…… I ws nt in d best of shapes mentally… I had started to tinker wid my nature, I hd started to look at myself differently…. Things had gone horribly wrong in d past month…. I don’t reject d point dat I may nt hv been dat deserving…bt still………..!!!!! the pain ws more so coz of d efforts , our parents put in…. I cud hv taken all dis in my stride n moved ahead un moved, bt I jus couldn’t manage to see d d disappointment on d face of my parents coz of me… where they hd given me all I wanted, I couldn’t giv them there share of happiness…. It was looking like a wasted life for me!!!! things had never been so gloomy ever before…..

A day or two later, we wer informed dat a company by the name of AZTECSOFT ws coming at MAIT on 8^th of august… no-one had even heard d name of d company…. neither had I. Some prepared hard for it… bt I had lost all hope… I dint prepare… During the time at clg, before august 8^th…. It ws like d worst one week at clg I had ever experienced in d past three years… sometimes I seemed to get lost all in mysef, I behaved strangely.. trying as hard as I cud to show dat all ws fine wid me, n nothing ws wrong. Finally a day before 8^th of august… quite a few ppl took a day off.. I dint…. I really had no hope left !!!! On d evening of 7^th of august after much persuasion frm mom, I went wid her to buy new clothes fr clg… as it ws d start of d new semester. Later dat night, I opened a buk n sat on d study table…. all lost. Dad came to me n told me to study well. Everyone went off to sleep around 11 dat night, except me. What happened after dat is really nt worth mentioning here…..!!!! I dint sleep dat night… jus hd a nap around 5 am in d morning n woke up again at 6 am. On the morning of 8^th I reached agrasen around 8:30… d same clg which on the morning of 13^th march ws looking like a crowded market, ws a deserted place… fr a moment I thot hd I reached early.. then I called ankit to confirm d timing.. I ws not early. Slowly a few ppl started coming in… while standing outside the clg, the total no. of ppl wer ot more than 10-15 frm our clg!!! we all joked “RACE MEIN AKELA BHAAG RAHE HAIN, FIR BHI NAHI JEET RAHE”… soon d gates of d clg wer opened , n we wer asked to move inside… then we wer given an attendance sheet… the list had shrinked … there wer only a handful of ppl left in d class who wer featuring in dat list. Ankit n me looked at each other…n jus laughed out!! Bt deep inside d pain ws sharp. The written ws conducted later.. n d results wer announced. I again hd managed to clear d written… out of a total of 135 students dat appeared around 65 cleared d written… then the GD ws conducted.. fr d first time I managed to clear d GD round… before this, I had cleared 5 of the 9 pprs I had sat in, dis ws d 6^th written I had cleared in d10 pprs I had given!!! and in all 5 of them I had been rejected at the very first point of interaction wid d ppl frm d company, dis ws d first time I managed to clear it!! Next ws d technical interview… I ju saw a ray of hope again,…… maybe dis ws my day!!! I tried to revise some technical stuff… bt it ws not of much use.. iws among d first ones to be called fr d interview….. then I thot my bad luck had caught up wid me again.. I went into d interview room… I went okay types…. not as bad an experience as sapient or tech mahindra!! Then d HR interview got over in less than 5 minutes!!! After dat d wait fr d result began…. quite a few ppl called in to enquire abt d result. Late dat evening, I ws sitting wid ankit…. assuring him dat dis night he wont go away disappointed….. I had experienced d pain of going back home after getting rejected, n I really dint wanted to experience it again… n certainly dint wanted anyone else to go thru it again… I ws desperate dis time…. I wasn’t ready fr another round of frustration!!! Soon, the results wer announced…… dis time my name ws announced in d selected list….. “PHEW” dis ws d first word dat came to my mid at dat moment… happiness n joy ws d last thing on my mind at dat moment… everything dat I had thot of doing before…. That imaginary punch in air dat I had imagined a month back jus dint come… soon I realized dat, Ankit ws nt been selected…. I knew exactly wat state he ws at dat point… I rushed towards him… jus dint had d courage of uttering a single word to him… stood there in front of him…. watching him… I had no words.. suddenly I felt lie loosing all my strength, I jus couldn’t help it!!! Then I switched off my cell…. dis time d reasons wer different… d person wid whom I ws coming back home hd nt been selected…. also there ws ankit there jus next to me n I jus dint wanted to attend any calls in front of him… Whatever I may say, now… the moments dat I had imagined before, jus dint took shape…. there ws no feeling of bliss coming frm inside… it ws more of relief than anything else.. at d same time I ws nt able to imagine wat ankit ws goin thru at dat time. I cud feel his pain The journey dat began on the 13^th of march finally culminated on d 8^th of august!!!! n quite fittingly at d same venue!! I reached home… Dad opened the gate n asked kya hua I said, “HO GAYA SELECT” then mom came n asked.. I said “ HO GAYA”.. d smile dat featured next on their face ws d one I ws waiting fr so long…. Bt still all those things dat I had imagined before jus never came naturally to me… I still wasn’t happy from inside. It ws more of a relief than anything else… soon phone calls started pouring in…….. it ws at dis moment dat I remembered d night of 14^th july again…. I really ws lucky to have such great ppl around me wen d chips wer down, who tried to help me out, who wer willing to share my sorrow….. I may hv thot d wrong way bt they never did!!!

The date 14^th july holds a special significance for me frm now on….. I might forget anything else… bt I wont frgt dat day…. it had taught me a lesson of a lifetimne… the lesson which I will keep wid myself all along my life… it is d date which will keep on reminding me in bad times, dat I hv faced tougher times… nothing comes easy here on dis planet… and friends n family are ur most treasured possessions… don’t loose them at any cost…. If u hv found a gud friend, consider urself lucky, n I consider myself the luckiest person on dis planet.. wid such great frnz… those who wer willing to help me out wen d chips wer down… I wont go here naming any of those.. all are equally important to me , n I dnt want to miss d name of even a single person!!!

P.S.- The date of the post below it also tells apart of d whole story

C ya !

2006-07-31T21:44:00.000+05:30

Ya ya i kno i m nt regular here........ bt cant help it.

Anywayz its time for a break frm blogging.......... c ya guys...

Adios!!

New template

2006-07-07T10:26:00.000+05:30

So............... finally a new template for my blog.............. with some desi touch from my side.

How did u find it ??........ tell tell.. bolo bolo..... bolo na!!!

Oye Hoye!!

2006-06-30T13:34:00.000+05:30

So, finally m updating my blog .... on popular demand .... he he

Well, nothing much happening these days..... jus getting bored sitting at home. Finally had an outing yesterday evening, it was d mehndi ceremony of my frnd's (gill) sis. The ceremony was in alaknanda....... n only two of us were invited by him, actually four...... the other two dint turn up.

We reached there by 9:00 ... its quite a distance frm my house in janak puri. And wen v reach their , v try n find Gill..... Finally v find d chap.......... n its after nearly 5 years dat i saw him, jus lost touch after i left skool after 10th. I got in touch wid him tthru hi5, n then exchanged nos.!!

There wer three of us, twas a small family gatherring in a club. so not uch of his other frnz wer invited... while the ladies wer busy in d hall singing their songs, n doing d regular mehndi stuff, v three decided to head to d bar... yes BAR.... a bar ....... where lotta hard drinks r served. Actually, to b honest it was d first time dat i ws goin to a bar. ..... u kno i m a very seedha saadha ladka... who doesnt drinks, bt my frnds wer nt as seedha saadha as me....... they had their drinks n i had my pineapple juice.. they tried to pursue me to drink , bt "me d gud boy" dint budge... After dat v moved to d hall after some chatting in d bar. n had some dinner.... n yes no bhangra n all......... Finally left frm their arnd 10:45... n since none of us two had ne vehicle v searched for an auto n finally found it.. went till Moti bagh frm where my frnds dad picked us up. I stayed at his place only fr d night... v jus chatted away d whole night. n trust me time jus flies away wen u r wid ur best buddies........ finally went to sleep arnd 4:30 n woke up again at 7:30... mannnnnn i m gettin more n more insomniac these days.... Reached home in d morning n keeping up d traditions of vellas alive.... sat in front of my PC n wrote dis post......

Untill next time
ciao!!!!

Wen trouble strikes, it strikes frm ALL ends....!!!!

2006-06-15T02:07:00.000+05:30

Kissi ne sahi hi kaha hai, “Jab bura samya aata hai, to oonth par baithe aadmi ko bhi kutta kat jaata hai” wanna kno more, then read on……

13^th june 10:00pm—mummy calls up n tells dat she wont b comin on wednesday n wil b back only by thursday. So nw I hv to pass another day wid makin my own breakfast...

14^th june—I woke up at 7:00 in d morning only 2 rmbr dat I had forgot 2 switch on the motor to fill up d water tank yesterday evening n now its to late in d morning to do dat. I thot “hmmmm nvr mind I wil do it in d evening 2day definitely”. There ws enuff of it to last till evening in the tank n also fr drinking purposes…. So I den made an ommolete which luckily turned out to be like an ommolete only After dat I went to SBI fr my training…….. the day hd just begun!!!

After comin back frm training arnd 2:00 I went to d dhaba to gt some food.. ate it n den slept arnd 3:30……. n woke up at 5:00 , then did some ususal internet vellagiri n in no time it was 6:45… oops!!! did I frgt something…….. yes I did!!! Shit d water tank is almost empty, there is nt any more water left to drink either……… hang on it is still 15 more minutes left(water goes out at 7:00) till then I can gt some water which wil atleast fulfill d drinking needs n there ws still some water in d tank jo ki subha tak to chal hi jayega. So I switch on the motor, n as soon as I switch it on ……. light gayi……. shit shit….. papa ne subha bola bhi tha ki motor yaad se ON kar diyo sham ko…… heck!!! ab to daant padegi!!! Light came back arnd 7:15 only bt nw twas too late to gt some water…… Dad came back arnd 7:30 n I told him dat there ws no water to drink… so I went to the neighbours house to gt some water, n gt two jugs of water frm there.

So, the water thing is sorted out now…… now is the time for dinner…. dis is wen d real story begins. Dad tells me to gt some food frm d dhaba …. heck ….y d hell am I suppose to do all the work …. neways, i took d car keys n went to gt some food. After getting d food , I sit back in d car…. its heavy traffic……. i am caught up in traffic, suddenly d engine stopped, I tried to start it again…….. did Dad frgt to tell me something….. yes he did……. d car ws low on fuel…….. heck o heck, m in middle of heavy traffic wid d car refusing to start, n ppl blowing the horns of their cars behind me…….. I get out of the car… manage to push it to a side n park it . I then called dad up to tell hm bout it…… he tells me dat there is a bottle in the dikki n tells me 2 gt some petrol frm d station. Which ws jus a 5 min walk away. So, I take d bottle n start moving. Suddenly I remember dat I dnt hv my wallet wid me….. shit!! I left it at home, jus took d money dad gave me n came here…… shit shit!! ab kya… I called Dad up again… n den i decided dat I come back home eat d dinner jo ki ab tak thanda ho chuka tha…. So after having dinner, I took d bottle n took my scooter… n went 2 d gas station n gt some fuel frm their…. It ws 10:15 at dis time. Yeah I cud hv taken dad alog wid me, bt he cudnt come wid me coz of his health…. So after takin d fuel frm d gas station I came back home n suddenly realized dat there ws some smell coming frm d dikki of d scoorer…… I checked I n found out dat, all the petrol had leaked out of the bottle….. shit!!! d bottle ws leaking frm its cap …… shit shit!!! So , I told dad bout it n took more money n another bottle n went again on d scooter… nw wen I reached d gas station , to my surprise it ws close….. wtf happened in these 10 minutes….. d guard told me dat its closing time is 10:00 n it ws jus abt 2 close wen I came here 10 min back. So I decided 2 go 2 d other station which is some distance away…. Nw on my way to dat gas station. I realized dat d scooter ws kinda stopping…….. ohhhhh it had actually stopped…….. shit shit !!! heck!!! nw I ws out of petrol in d scooter aswell…. shit shit!!! mujhe yaad kyun nahi aaya ki scooter ka reserve lage hue 1 mahina ho chukka tha..ab kya!!!! Scooter ko dhakka maaro!!!! So nw I dragged my scooter 2 d petrol pump…… luckily dis one ws open n I also hd brought some xtra cash wid me . So I gt d scooter refueled aswell as gt some petrol in d bottle….. n finally me n d car wer back at home by 11:00…..

No no its nt over yet……… nw I thot of writing dis post. Usually I write my posts in MS word first, fr some reasons like wat if light went out n I hd to write d post again….. actually the UPS of my PC isn’t workin either…. It wil nt b long till dis hard disk crashes aswell……. coming back to d point….. bt dis time I decided to write it straight onto my blog, as light hd till nw nvr evr gone wen I ws writing my post. N nw wat happens is ……. wat hs nvr happened , happened dis time……. d lights went out wen I ws writing my post. heck o heck!!!! I ws almost complete wid my post…. shit mannnn , “aaj ka din hi kharaab tha shayad”, I thot like dat!!! So nw wrote dis whole post again…. vella to main hoon hi …… Ohhh!! I frgt 2 mention one more thing. Dat wen d light went out, n i went to run d generator, while coming back I cut my finger in d door… it hurt!! So finally I did managed to type dis post wid a cut on my index finger.

Hopefully, things wud b better on thursday…. wid mom xpected 2 b back by 11:00…. N yes nw I must go to sleep as I hv 2 wake up early tommrow to switch on d motor(fr water) n also clean up all d mess dat I hd created in my room n d kitchen in d past couple of days…..

Till nxt time

Adios!!

UPDATE (15th june- 12:15pm)

I thot dat all d rhings which happened esterday hd ended wid d day ........ bt i ws wrong...... i ws damn wrong......

While sleeping yesterday, i put on d alarm of 6:00 am, so dat i cud fill d water in d morning... bt damn!!! raat ko fone ki battery jawaab de gayi....... wen i woke up in d morning it ws 7:45. n i ws late again!!! shit shit!!! so nw 2 gt some drinking water i went to d market n brought 3 bislery bottles..... nahaane dhone ka paani kush kismatti se abhi bhi thoda bahut tha . So, i thot may b dis ws d last of d bad sequence....... bt man i ws wrong...... read on!!!

Had some breakfast, n left home arnd 9:30 fr metro station, for goin 2 my training...... half way to d station, i realize i hd forgotten d gate pass at home only... so i rushed back home n gt it... I reached SBi arnd 1030 n kept waiting fr amitesh n lokender to come. Finally i saw amitesh's dad's car...... bt heck!! there is no amites n lokender in it........ shit shit!!!!!!! wo chhutti maar gaye aur main akela hi aaya. So, then i called amitesh..

Me- Hello!!!
Amitesh- haan bol
Me- kahan hai saale
Amitesh- ghar pe
Me- abe main to pahunch gaya SBI
Amitesh- arre aaj to nahi aana th, kal baat hui thi..
Me- kab hui thi be, mujhe na yaad.. *%$#@%&*%$#
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Really, pata nahi aage aur kya kya hoga...... wil keep ya updated , if somthing else happens..

Hello ppl !!!

2006-06-12T17:59:00.000+05:30

So, its been quite a while since i sat down and updated dis space.

Here it goes.......

June -- the time when clg is closed and u have gt nothing much to do besides jus sit down in front of ur PC and do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING...... n dis is wat i hv been doing frm d day after d exams got over. O yes yes, i forgot to inform dat i dint update my blog coz my exams wer goin on, n i ws studying very hard for those n jus dint find netime to write nething here.

Well, really nothing much has been happening , jus gettin bored at home (if i take out a few odd hours dat i spend at SBI where my summer training is goin on) . Wen in clg u keep on waiting for the holidays, n wen u hv ur holidays u jus keep on waiting for the clg to start again... dis is exactly wat has been happening wid me too, jus cant get enough of the clg masti.

Skool frnds r goin 2 arrive in delhi tommorow n v al r planning a get together n i hope it doesnt tun out to be d same as d previous one, where it all ended rather badly. Newayz, v wil hv some fun together 2mrw.

N yes, before i end dis rather boring post i must tell u all, it is tough staying at house widout ur mum...... ask me ppl. Mom went to chandigarh dis saturday n wil b back by wednesday. n till den i wud hv to keep up by making my own breakfast. Today i tried to make an ommlette in breakfast bt ended up making bhurji... lol. Guys it is tough to get up at 6 in d morning to turn on the motor(to fill the water tank). To make matters worse the guy who comes at my home to do the cleaning hs nt come for the past two days n i yesterday ended up cleaning the d dishes myself , nehow d gud news is dat mom wil b back by wednesday n hopefully d guy who does d cleaning also comes tommorow or i might get an asthama attack from the dust in d house
Yes dis is d end of the post n wil try n keep u all updated regularly n hopefull d next post wil hv somthing intresting in it.

Bye for now......
cout

BACK!!!!

2006-06-05T22:48:00.000+05:30

I am back......... wait for some stuff here!!!

Adios!

2006-05-21T11:54:00.000+05:30

I'll be back...................!!!

I CRIED

2006-05-01T17:29:00.000+05:30

9-10 years back we used to play cricket matches in the colony park. There ws another team of a few guys whom all of us hated like hell..... We used to have matches with them, n more often than not the matches used to end with a fight between us n them.There was this guy called Varun who ws their leader, whom all of us jus hated like nething.We literrary had fights wid each other evrytime v played together.

The guy Varun whom i am talkin bout is 2-3 yrs older than me. 9 years back he met wid an accident on a bike.He ended up being in coma for 1 & 1/2 yrs. I never managed to meet him wen he ws ill, bt my mother used to go 2 his house 2 enquire bout him.So i ws quite aware bout his condition, n felt bad bout wat happened.He recoverd fom coma after after 1 & 1/2 yr bt never fully recovered frm the injuries he got. He now cant even walk properly, leave alone play cricket again. He hs been mentally affected by the injuries he gt n never really recovered frm those.

So nw its been atleast 9 yrs since i last met him, although i had seen him a few times wen he used to sit in the garden outside his house. Yesterday, when i ws comin back from my class at IMS(arnd 1pm), i saw this guy Varun standing with the help of supports, outside his house, trying to call a rickshaw, bt he jus couldnt manage to lift his voice to that level so that the rickshaw guy could listen him. So watching dis i decided to call the rickshaw, n helped him get on to the rickshaw. Varun dint recognise me, he jus said a little innocent thank you n sat in the rickshaw n went on his way.When he had left, i thot a little for a moment n jus broke down. I jus couldnt help myself from crying. I litterally cried, for a guy whom i once hated like hell, n nw who dint even recognised me.I met him after 9 long yrs, n jus couldnt control my emotions.

There was dis guy, who once when shouted in the park even the ppl who wer in their homes wer able to hear him, n nw he wasnt even able to call a rickshaw who ws jus 10 metres away frm him. A guy who once used to play cricket for hours at a stretch in d park wasnt even able to get into a rickshaw on his own. After seeing all this, i jus couldnt control myself, i cried.

After comin back home i tried to control myself bt js couldnt help. I never ever thot i wud one day cry for a person whom i once used to hate like hell. I jus dunno , y i cried. may b coz i met him after such a long time n jus couldnt control myself after seein him in dat condition.

May b i cried nt only coz of dis incident bt also coz i had a lot of things packed inside my heart, which i never felt like sharing wid ne1,jus wrote 'a bit' bout them in my blog n all of which came out in the form of tears yesterday.

Nice one................ i dint composed it.

2006-04-24T19:59:00.000+05:30

I stand alone in the darkness
The winter of my life came so fast
Memories go back to childhood
To days i still recall
Oh how happy i was then
There was no sorrow there was no pain
Walking through the green fields
Sunshine in my eyes

I'm still there everywhere
I'm the dust in the wind
I'm the star in the northern sky
I never stayed anywhere
I'm the wind in the trees
Would u wait for me forever

You are always my best friend always

I'm still there everywhere
I'm the dust in the wind
I'm the star in the northern sky
I never stayed anywhere
I'm the wind in the trees

Would u wait for me forever?

Would u wait for me forever?

Will u wait for me forever?

WHY?????

2006-04-21T09:24:00.000+05:30

When i think evrythin wil turn out 2 b smooth, n i wil try hard in no matter wat i do...............why????????? why does evrything goes awry....... why does this happen??????

Jus dunno y does dis always happen wid me............ I feel like.......... i m out of my mind..........

Now, lets c wat evry1 calls GOD do's.......... wait n watch................ m waitin fr dis................ very eagerly.

Call me insane.....

GUILT!!!!

2006-04-16T21:17:00.000+05:30

I wrote a very very LONG post here, bt decided to delete it............ coz it gt a bit sad.So i wil jus put the summary of dat post.

I broke my pledge to myself, which i made to myself 6 years back.............. that "i wud never ever cheat for the rest of my life may it be exams or nething else"...... coz i think sooner or later honesty pays n i hv seen dat happen wid me.

Bt today, i cheated in the sapient exam............. i hope i dont gt thru dis one......... yeah u gt it rite.......... i hope i dnt gt thru dis exam.

IMS premises @ Rajouri Garden sealed by MCD

2006-04-14T18:00:00.000+05:30

Friday, 14 April
Time-12:15 pm
I get a call from IMS (the name of the guy is Sandeep)

Sandeep: Hello!!
Me: Hello!!
Sandeep: Is this pushpreet?
Me: Yeah!!
Sandeep: Hi! pushpreet, this sandeep from IMS.
Me: Ya!
Sandeep: You will not b having your classes at IMS this weekend i.e saturday and sunday u wil nt b having ne classes....
{ Me: ( Yippy!!!!!!!!!) I was happy like nething to hear dat i wil nt b having these classes this weekend.........}
Me: OK!!!
Sandeep: Actually MCD has sealed the premises of MCD, so we wont b having ne classes dis weekend....... From the next week onwards ur classes wil b shifted to some school, n u wil b informed about dat on wednesday/thursday.
Me: OK!!! So u wil b calling me to inform abt dat?
Sandeep: Yeah!! i wil b calling u back....
Me: OK!!!

So, IMS Premises have been sealed by MCD, n thnx 2 dat i wil b gettin a week off.......... bt on a more serious note, i wil b having my classes in some school...... n so there wud b no AC in the classes....... nehow, lets see wat happens next.............. wil these IMS ppl b able to arrenge for a school or not............... kkk.......... lets stop writing about these nonsense topics n gt back to do some programming coz sapient is comin to hire me n lets c wat is the result of this one............ i m nt a programming champ n thnx to dat i dnt hav much hopes wid dis 1, nehow lets wait n watch ki kis company ki kismat fodunga main........

Gawd!!!!!!!!!! who told my parents dat i wud become a gud doctor ........

Aye saala........

2006-04-12T19:47:00.000+05:30

I jus love dis song from RDB, so thot of putting it up here.......

Aye saala.....

Abhi abhi huaa yaqeen
Ki aag hai mujh mein kahin

Hui subaah main chal gaya
Suraj ko main nikal gaya

Ruu-Ba-Ruu roshni
Ruu-Ba-Ruu roshni haiiiii

Jo gumshuda-sa khwaab tha
Voh mil gaya
Voh khil gaya
Wo loha thaa pighal gaya
Khichaa khichaa machal gaya
Sitaar mein badal gayaaaaa

Ruu-Ba-Ruu Roshni
Ruu-Ba-Ruu roshni haiiii

Dhuaan chhataa khula gagan mera, nayi dagar naya safar mera; jo ban sake tu hamsafar mera nazar mila zara - 2

Aandhiyon se jaghad rahi hai lau meri
Ab mashaalon si badh rahi hai lau meri
Naamo nishaan rahe na rahe
Ye kaaravaan rahe na rahe
Ujaale mein pee gaya
Roshan huaa jee gaya

Kyon sehte rahe

Ruu-Ba-Ruu roshni
Ruu-Ba-Ruu roshni haiiiiii

Dhuaan chhataa khula gagan mera, nayi dagar naya safar mera; jo ban sake tu hamsafar mera nazar mila zara - 2

Ruu-Ba-Ruu roshni
Ru-Ba-Ruu roshni haiiii

Aye saala
Aye saala
Aye saala
Aye saala

WTF!!! More quotas....... ::: A PROTEST

2006-04-08T22:23:00.000+05:30

News on the front page of TOI (April 7)

"Seats in Delhi University for the general category could shrink by 13,716 seats — down from 35,306 seats to 21,590 seats — and make admissions a cut-throat affair.

In IITs, where the fight for entry is still more fierce, the general quota could be down by 1,330. And top IIMs (Ahmedabad, Calcutta and Bangalore), could face a seat cut of 210 in the general category.

This is if the Manmohan Singh cabinet passes a notification to introduce 27% reservation for OBCs in 20 central universities, the IITs and IIMs. "

Indian government is trying to bring in quota of 27% in all higher-education institutes for people who belong to backward castes. That will increase the overall quota percentage to 49.5% (if you also take into account the already exisiting 22.5% seat reservations for SC/STs).

As a result, meritous students will find it increasingly difficult to get into prestigious intitutes of their choice. WTF? I always feel that their should not be any quotas or reservations of any kind anywhere.I am a sikh and i belong to a minority community. There are reservations for sikhs in colleges and universities, and i am strongly opposed to it. I dont think it does any good to the sikh community as a whole by providing these quotas. These quotas have just been introduced by some politicians for their political gains. This was one reason i never took admission into any of the college offering me admission on the basis of my religion.Merit should be the only criteria for admissions into colleges and universities.

If you really want to give people from backward castes/SCs/STs an oppurtunity to grow, you should reform the education at the primary sector first. Make primary education compulsory, and provide it free of cost to all these people. Let them learn. Let them grow. And, then if they have the capability, they will anyway compete with the best in the field.

By giving reservations, not only is the government depriving thousands of people from getting the kind of education they deserve, it is also lowering the standards of the intitutes which are the pride of INDIA at the global stage.

IIMs and IITs are mega-brands, and they are mega-brands simply because they follow a very, very stringent process for admissions in form of JEE and CAT. If a person A has lower ability than B, but still gets through (and B doesn’t) just because he belongs to so and so social group, it will only result in brand dilution of the institutes. Remember, it takes years to build a brand, but a foolish decision like this will sink this very brand in no time.

Moreover, as my personal experience goes, normally its the children of ‘privledged’ families belonging to these so called backward-castes/SCs/STs get admissions into these insitutes. So, the government should first carefully study, whether there has been any effect of reservation system in the upliftment of the lower rungs of the society or not.I dont have anything against the people from the backward castes......... bt wat the heck , caste shud never b a criteria for getting admissions into the universities, which tomorrow are going to produce the future of INDIA, and no-one wants the future of INDIA to be given into the hands of people who are at the top just coz they were born in a certain home, n nt coz he worked hard (certainly nt as hard as compared to some person who studied harder bt couldnt get into the university) . Implementing a stupid rule, just for the sake of getting votes in the coming assembly elections, should be a complete no-no.

I find it ironic that the education system that is supposed to make INDIA a superpower in a near future, is morphing into one which will serve a death blow to the concept of merit.

I certainly dont think this a step in the right direction in making the future of INDIA and the future of more than 1 billion ppl of this country, where only caste will b the basis n not merit.

Students around the country have already started an online petition against this rule. If you believe that this policy is unjustified and is downright regressive, do take some time out of your schedule to sign it. Here is the link Say NO to quota

I DONT CARE !!!!!!

2006-03-30T22:58:00.000+05:30

Its dat time of the semester, when the sessionals are staring in my face again. Before every sessionals i get these funny sort of sms's n this time is nt different. I wud hv fwded it agar mera phone akbar k zamaane ka na hota...........(its dat ki these long sms's come in linked form in my cellphone, so i dnt manage 2 fwd ne of them) I jus thot of putting it up here. Its a little poem, read it...............

Exams are here
Where the marks are rare.
At the questions i stare,
the answers are nowhere,
which makes me pull my hair.
And the teachers they glare,
the grades are always below FAIR.
I am like a rabbit,
trapped in a snare.
But just like the past 20 years
I DONT CARE........... I DONT CARE !!!!!!!!!

May be v 'wud b engineers' r so used to reading these funny sort of little poems, dat v dnt find it funny nemore......... may b nt....... Awwww, frgt it........ i hv got some studies to do, some syllabus to find out n some buks to search for {its been more than a month since those buks came out of the almirah,let me find out where they exactly are... :)) } so wont make dis one large.....

The name is BOND - James Bond

2006-03-27T23:16:00.000+05:30

If James Bond is 007. Then who is 111?
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Think. Use your brains!
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OK. Still not able to answer kya?
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111 is Binary James Bond.

{For mathematically handicapped 2^0+2^1+2^2=7}

Ok.. Ok........ wanna add to my total........ u r most welcome to do that......

LOL

Phew........... i really think i dont hv nething else to do.................

I am confused............

2006-03-21T18:12:00.000+05:30

Wats goin on in life these days....... evryday i gt 2 hear somthing new, somthing strange, i mean something really strange................... only thot it ws all in movies, bt NO!!!!!!! it happens in real life too....... yeah trust me guys wat these movies show is not at all a farce, it is all there happening arnd us, bt v gt to open our eyes WIDE to see it all.... its all fr u to believe , u jus hv to.

I need a BREAK, a LONG one....................

2006-03-19T22:12:00.000+05:30

For the past few weeks, life has been upside down.There has been no schedule watsoever, my mood hasnt been great either. It all started on 26th feb. Everything has gone awry after dat day, all went as i expected it to.

These days i jus dont feel like doin nething, nt dat i dont hv nething 2 do, bt jus dat i dnt feel like doin nething. There hs been an unusual calm at home. Many of my frnz who live in hostels at their clgs came to delhi on holi, i nvr felt like meeting ne of them. Only met gagan , whomanaged to come at my place.

What used to be one of my favourite passtimes i.e. sending sms's , has bow become something which i luv to hate. The inbox of my cell remains empty. I dnt e1 feel like readig ne sms which i get, dunno y......??? The only thing i do nwdayz is to play snake on my cellphone endlesly, be it lectures in clg, or at home. Today i had a 4 hr class at IMS .There used 2 b a 10 min break in between the class, bt somehow 2day it gt extended to over half an hour. In all those 30 min brk i did ws playsnake on my phone . Dint e1 moved frm my seat, dint talked 2 ne1. Even at clg there seems to b dat unusual sort of a atmosphere.

Maybe things will fall in place with time, i sincerely hope it will, else........................................

Maybe i need a break, a LONG one , to clear up my senses, gt rejuvenated, get back some energy which i someday used 2 hv, get back dat sense of humour which i lost years back, forget all those bad memories of past 2-3 years n start afresh again........

Miss those days...........

2006-03-15T21:02:00.000+05:30

Its Holi 2day n as expected it wsnt a day to rmbr......... no nothing bad happened bt jus dat it was pretty boring to jus sit at home n watch other ppl arnd my house celebrating it.Gone are the days wen i n my frnz wud jus wait for dis day n v jus used to njoy ourselves out in the streets arnd our homes n other ppl wud watch us celebrating, bt dis time it ws the other way round n a neighbour even asked me y wasnt i celebratint it this time, n i jus said 'aise hi bas'. All of us wud jus get together n njoy ourselves. The day used to begin wid all the frnz getting together at one of my frnz place n v wud all first play holi amongst ourselves n den pick up 2-3 buckets of coloured water n jus go out on the streets n color evry1 n ne1 v knew.......... awww i miss those days..... it used 2 b all fun, n it used to end around 1 in the afternoon, n after dat v jus used to sit in the park bench n talk for hours till our mums used to come searching us.............. it jus used to b a memorable day.

Bt dis year it ws vry different, no1 came 2 my house 2 celebrate Holi, no frnz i mean none... :( I woke at 9 in the morning, wid the calls from rohit n arun to wish me 'Happy Holi'. After dat i read a few sms dat i hd rcvd... all same as evry year..... no changes, very repetitive stuff. then had a bath n hd some breakfast, cholle bathure, which my mum makes on Holi evry year n i must say i still dont feel bored after eating it every year n i juslove it. Mom went to gurudwara n kept forcing me 2 com along bt i dint budge, btw yesterday one of my frnd, gagan, who came to my house last evening made me realize dat it has been 3 months since i went 2 a gurudwara n i havent yet been to one in dis year(2006), n its been atleast 5 months since i went 2 he colony gurudwara...Newayz, after having breakfast i went 2 the terrace n jus leaned by the railing n kept watching the ppl who wer celebrating it in all the spirits..... waise it wsnt that i dint celbrate holi coz i ws upset or there wer ne personal reasons, bt jus the fact dat........ naah i wont put all those reasons here.. So after dat i also sent a few sms's 2 my frnz, btw i sent all the sms's very reluctantly as i ws jus dont feeling like sending ne n for dat matter ne sms's these days, the inbox of my cell phone is empty, n i delete all the sms the moment i gt them.

The day hs ended n i havent yet wished ne of those old frnz whom i used to play holi wid. No1 sent ne sms's , i dint either, no1 came 2 my home to wish , i dint either........ :( I hope all those old days wil return n all of us wil celebrate this festival of colours together once again wid all the cheerfulnes for which our group ws so famous for.........

HAPPY HOLI to all of u ............. n also to all those whom i dint wish..........

See........... there is some HOPE.......

2006-03-14T20:23:00.000+05:30

I found this piece while surfing the net............felt a bit gud after reading dis thing, so thot of putting it up here.

A winner is NOT one who NEVER FAILS, but one who NEVER QUITS.. read on..

A candidate for a news broadcasters post was rejected by officials
Since his voice was not fit for a news broadcaster.

He was also told that with his obnoxiously long name, he would never Be
famous.
He is Amitabh Bachan.
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A small boy - the fifth amongst seven siblings of a poor father, was
selling newspapers in a small village to earn his living.

He was not exceptionally smart at school but was fascinated by
religion and rockets. The first rocket he built crashed. A missile that he
built crashed multiple times and he was made a
butt of ridicule.

He is the person to have scripted the Space Odyssey of India
single-handedly - Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam.
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In 1962, four nervous young musicians played their first record audition
for the executives of the Decca recording Company.
The executives were not impressed.

While turning down this group of musicians, one executive said, “We
don’t like their sound. Groups of guitars are on the way out.”
The group was called The Beatles.
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In 1944, Emmeline Snively, director of the Blue Book Modeling
Agency told modeling hopeful Norma Jean Baker, “You’d better learn
secretarial work or else get married.” She went on and became Marilyn
Monroe.
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In 1954, Jimmy Denny, manager of the Grand Ole Opry, Fired a singer
after one performance.

He told him, “You ain’t goin’ nowhere….son. You ought to go back
To drivin’ a truck.”
He went on to become Elvis Presley.
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When Alexander Graham Bell invented the telephone in 1876, it did not
ring off the hook with calls from potential backers.
After making a demonstration call, President Rutherford Hayes said,
“That’s an amazing invention, but who would ever want to see one of
them?”
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When Thomas Edison invented the light bulb, he tried over 2000
experiments before he got it to work.
A young reporter asked him how it felt to fail so many times.
He said, “I never failed once. I invented the light bulb. It just
happened to be a 2000-step process.”
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In the 1940s, another young inventor named Chester Carlson took his
Idea to 20 corporations, including some of the biggest in the country.
They all turned him down.

In 1947, after 7 long years of rejections, he finally got a tiny
Company in Rochester, NY, the Haloid company, to purchase the rights to
his invention — an electrostatic paper-copying process.
Haloid became Xerox Corporation.
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A little girl - the 20th of 22 children, was born prematurely and
Her survival was doubtful.

When she was 4 years old, she contracted double pneumonia and
scarlet fever, which left her with a paralysed left leg.

At age 9, she removed the metal leg brace she had been dependent on
And began to walk without it.

By 13 she had developed a rhythmic walk, which doctors said was a
miracle.

That same year she decided to become a runner.
She entered a race and came in last.
For the next few years every race she entered, she came in last.

Everyone told her to quit, but she kept on running.
One day she actually won a race. And then another.
From then on she won every race she entered.

Eventually this little girl - Wilma Rudolph, went on to win three
Olympic gold medals.
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A school teacher scolded a boy for not paying attention to his
mathematics and for not being able to solve simple problems.
She told him that you would not become anybody in life.
The boy was Albert Einstein.

Another weekend came n went..............

2006-03-05T21:45:00.000+05:30

Another sunday, n another weekend hs passed...... wid all the plans remaining as they are "plans"!!! newayz there still is hope as the pprs are still a few weeks away n a few more weekends wil come in between n a HOLIday ,which i think wont b as rockin as it used to b the prvs yrs coz of various reasons :( , dis wud mean dat i wud gt another holiday n i wil try my hand at som studies, the same way i hv been tring it fr the prvs few weeks........... :p

Entry for March 04, 2006

2006-03-04T21:44:00.000+05:30

I hv soooooo many things on my mind wen i am not sitting in front of my PC, bt as soon as i sit down to write something i jus cant figure out wat to write n end up writing loads of shit. May be i wl gt ovr it someday n write down something which is wort reading....... wil sombody gift me a laptop on my b'day :p ,to help me gt ovr this thing so dat i cn blog while on the move :)........... waise i want another thing too, if u cud gift me dat... 'a digital camera'........ :D

Is someone listening............... my b'day is on 17th nov...... so guys start saving, HURRY!!!!!

Entry for March 03, 2006

2006-03-03T21:48:00.000+05:30

So, another weekend n some more lazying aound.I wil try n hv a happy weekend with no depressing thots n no distractions watsoever; wil 'try' to start studying wat these IMS guys tel me to wil aim at those IIMs......... jus kiddin, the IIMs are nt my aim , jus dat i am tryin to gt some rust off my brains.Its been quite some time since i am tryin 'to oil my brain' bt jus cant manage to....... these two n a half yrs hv spoilt me... :p..... lol.

Its been a month since i atended any tutorials or studied in lectures jus bc n nothing else, lazying around in the clg corridor, sitting in the canteen wid frnz no tension of studies no tension of completing files nothing abt studies..... no talk abt future plans, NOTHING. So, frm nxt week i am goin to chng all that, may be, may be not........... bt i wil giv it a try, mind u jus a try :p...... haaa haaaaaaa!!

The lectures are gettin boring by the day, the backlog of the studies is getting quite large, may be dats the reason for the lectures gettin boring coz i dont kno nething abt wat hs hapened in the prvs lectures. Goin to the clg, laughing endlessly along wid frnz for no reason watsoever, jus roamin arnd wid no aim............ i jus love it all :p. bt still i wil try n chng all that, mind u again jus try ... he he he.

...........................

2006-02-28T19:33:00.000+05:30

I am a bit bored n a bit depressed today,rather i am a lot depressed today, dunno y........ naah....... i do kno y!!! jus dat i wont like to share it here or wid ne1 for dat matter. Jus outta frustration i bad mouthed arun, bt apologised later to him.... hope u dont mind arun... i am sorry again.( i a gettin in the habit of first doin the wrong n then apologising later on, may be this is one gud quality in me dat i dont mind apologising to anyone if i am wrong)

As i said earlier, "IS THIS THE BEGINNING OF THE END?", to me it seems so. My nature is goin to kill me someday ..........

P.S - Call me a depressed soul or watever....... I DONT GIV A DAMN!!!!!

The beginning of the end...

2006-02-26T21:01:00.000+05:30

It happened ........... the thing i feared the most or shud i say the 'things' i feared the most............. "IS THIS THE BEGINNING OF THE END?"

Entry for February 26, 2006

2006-02-26T09:53:00.000+05:30

So, another sunday n another day when all my plans for the weekend wil go for a toss......... Bt today i am happy coz i gt a holiday frm my coaching classes n i will sit at home for the whole day, wont keep a foot outside my home for a single moment, come wat may!!! Boy am i happy to gt dis day off..................

Why do i blogggggggggg........

2006-02-25T21:59:00.000+05:30

Yeah, dis ws d question i ws asked by 1 of my frnz, "why do u blog?". So, y do i blog!!!

I blog coz i want to, i do it for the fun of it, it makes me feel a lot lighter, it helps me bring out all the thoughts in my mind out.For an introvert like me it really is a good way to communicate my thots(atleast, dis is the way i think). I really do feel a lot lighter atop my shoulders after i write somthing on my blog, i really do............. there are many things, which wud hv left unsaid hd i nt writen them here, there still are a lot of things which are unsaid n i dont e1 manage to write them here for some reasons which are best known to me. No1 yet knows me completly n i dont think ne1 wil ever gt to.

In the end i wud jus say dat , there is a lot more to me than u guys c frm ur eyes........... My life is a mystery n wil remain dat way..............

Keep guessing!!!!!!!

P.S.- I dint write the above post jus for the heck of it.

Miracles do happen.......... ask me!!!!

2006-02-23T21:20:00.000+05:30

Ohhhh mannn, i cant blv these ip guys.................. hw did i manage to clr the AE ppr. Study for 4 hours for ur end term ppr ( wen i say 4 hrs, dis is the total time i studied in the whole sem for dis ppr). Now, i can say dat i am happy......... which i culdnt say after the 5th sem rslt. I jus dint feel any hapiness after my results of the 5th sem...... bt nw i am happy..........

I really cant describe my happiness at dis moment........... finally i am relieved 2 say dat" mere pichle saare paap dhul gaye hain"........ i mean woohoooo.....!!!!. Kaun kehta hai ki miracles dont happen....... ask me!!! i can tel u quite a lot of miracles dat hv happened.......

Me, myself and I

2006-02-22T23:11:00.001+05:30

CONTENTS OF THIS POST HAVE BEEN DELETED FOR SOME WEIRD REASONS

Nt sure if its true.........

2006-02-21T19:07:00.000+05:30

A few days back i gt a sms frm one of my frnd, which really struck me........... i ws like "mannn is dis really true...!!!" So i dint fwd dis sms 2 ne1 as i ws a bit apprehensive abt sending it fr some reasons( i wont like 2 discuss those here).... So here is the text of dat sms, exactly the same as it ws sent to me...... Here it is :

"I was reading these figures in a buk on freedom struggle.From 1857 to 1947, 121 freedom fighters were hanged by the britishers, out of which 93 were sikhs,2600 were sent to andaman, out of which 2350 were sikhs, 66 were blown by shells (top) all 66 were sikhs, property of 2500 freedom fighters were confisticated out of which 2300+ were sikhs.(Still stupid people laugh on sikhs, may be they are jealous of not being one.) Sikhism means respect!"

Again, i will like to add in the end dat i am not sure if it is true, bt still, i felt like writing it so i did............ ITS MY SPACE, ISNT IT!!!!!!!!!

Entry for February 19, 2006

2006-02-19T21:52:00.000+05:30

Well, today was sunday yet again, the first after the 1st sessionals.So as i had nothing on my mind xcpt a few bad memories frm the past week, i jus took the day off wid nothing on my mind.There ws dis 4 hr IMS class aswell in d morning, which i hate 2 attend. I really do hate to attend these classes, as they seem to hv spoiled my weekend.Waking at 7:30 on a sunday morning is surely a thing i dont like one bit, btw during the weekdays too i only wake up at around 8:30!!!! Dont kno y, bt everytime i reach IMS i seem to gt very upset, my mood suddenly dips down n dont feel like talkin 2 ne1. I JUS HATE GOIN THERE N ATTENDING THESE 'TUTIONS' . Surely one reason being dat its been nearly 3 years since i attended ne such class where v are taught hw 2 clear some bullshit exam.Anyhow i dont kno hw much i am goin 2 benefit frm these classes as i kno that............ no i am not goin 2 write it down here or again........ no i am nt goin 2 write dis either.

So, today a cricket match was also goin on between India n pakistan, no i am nt talkin abt the one being played in pakistan but the one being played at colombo, the under-19 cricket world cup final. India bowled first n bundled out the pakis for a pltry 109 in aroun 30 odd overs.Then it was the turn of india to bat.... n cruise through.Bt pakis had a different script in their mind. First ball n the opener is bowled out for a duck. India 0/1. Then the second over, by a bowler called 'Anwer', . At the end of the second over india is 4 down for 5 odd run on the board.After that i switched off the TV n wen i switch it on again, india is 11/6 !!!!!! After that a partenership of sorts between Piyush Chawla n Pinal Shah. That dint last the full distance either, pinal shah gettin out at the score of 16 n india reeling at 60 odd runs n 8 down. After that it ws jus a matter of time that india folded out. India got all out pretty soon n pakistan won the match after being bundled out for a paltry score of 109 n defending it quite beautifully............ I never thought that i wud write bout somthing like a U-19 cricket match bt dont kno y i jus felt like writing abt it so i did.......... btw dis is my space n i am goin 2 write wat i want to n wat i feel like doesnt matter if it is all total crap, n i dont giv a damn abt wat som1 else thinks abt wat i write or wat i think abt. These are all my thoughts, albeit a bit censored by me n i am goin to write wat i feel like....... 2 evry1 else FYA n gth if u dont wanna read al the shit i write.................

P.S. - jus got a bit angry while writing the last part for no apparent reason, jus dat i am a bit too much moody sort of a person n if in mood i am gud else i can b as big a bore as u cud think of n as shy a person as ne1 cud be...... wtf yar!!! wat crap did i write above....... anyhow i wil soon b writin somthing bout myself, i think i still need to write a proper introduction of myself n i am goin to write it soon, if my mood permits :-p

Exams r over

2006-02-18T21:27:00.000+05:30

Finally exams r over.............. if ever i felt they wer goin on!!!

5 , 1 , 3 , 5 , 4

I understand d sequence written above,dont kno abt ne1 else!!

Happy Birthday Mummy!!!

2006-02-14T12:47:00.000+05:30

Today is 14th feb n its my mom's bday........

Wish u a very Happy B'day Mummy...........!!!

Love u ma, i hope u will be there with me forever................

Wats ur plan 4 tommorow?

2006-02-13T15:23:00.000+05:30

Mine:

Celebrations with the lady whom i love the most.................!!!

Cant gt worse

2006-02-13T13:23:00.000+05:30

So, 1 down n 4 more to go............

Today ws MPS(8086).........

Tomorrow is microwave, i dont kno a thing abt it n i am writin dis shit & nt studying...............

I have a split personality.....

2006-02-10T15:14:00.000+05:30

Yeah i realised it only 2day............. one is online and the other is offline.... lol

All clr mate, congrats.......

2006-02-08T15:15:00.000+05:30

'All clr mate, congrats', this ws the sms which i got from amitesh dis morning.The result of the 5th sem is finally out and i have cleared all the pprs.Actually, the result was out at midnight only.I slept a bit early(arnd 11:15) on 7th feb.When i woke up in the morning and checked my cellphone,what i found was 2 sms and 3 missed calls.Both the sms read "Check kar,result aa gaya hai shayad........." from amitesh n chirag and the missed calls from amitesh, chirag n ankit.With my heart in my mouth,i replied to both amitesh n chirag,enquiring abt the fact that , has the result been dclared or was this another rumour (which is quite common at this time of the year).I waited for the rply from either amitesh or chirag, none replied for atleast an hour and a half. Till that time, i couldnt find the courage to switch on the PC. I knew if the result was out , i wouldnt be able to see it , coz the reslt wud hv been available in .pdf format n i dint hd adobe acrobat reader installed in my PC.So, i waited for some1 to gimme the news.Finally, the phone beeped n hey!! its amitesh's rply, "All clr mate, congrats......"

Hurray!!! i hv done it...........

Congrats to all...........

2006-02-08T14:37:00.000+05:30

So, the result of the 5th sem is out n the whole gang has passed the exams.......

CONGRATULATIONS to everyone.........

Keep it up........

Back to EARTH.....!!!

2006-02-07T21:27:00.000+05:30

Today, i appeared in my first ever mock placement exercise and as expected i dint even clear the first round.It wasa mock placement test,which was conducted by CL and consisted of three rounds.The first round was an aptitude test of one hour.The second round was supposed to be a GD round and the third one,an HR interview.

A total of 96 students gave the aptitude test.From the 96 students,a total of 60 were selected (65, after some guys left after giving the test).The test comprised of 10 basic mathematics questions.I attempted 7-8 ques(i am nt sure of the exact figure).After the test,the results were declared immediately.the guy from CL called out the names of all the students who were selected,one by one.I waited patiently for my name to be called out, it never was.......... All the castles came crashing down.After the high from tha IMS ppr,the low was expected.Maybe this faliure dint managed to touch my heart coz of the fact that i never backed myself to clear the first stage.One main reason, why i appeared for the exam was to know where i stand and help myself keep my feet firmly on the ground.I sincerely wanted to test myself and get some of the rust off my brains.I have realised it,that some portion of the grey matter atop my body has begun to rust.Honestly speaking, the last time i studied sincerely was during my 12th boards.So, here i am, perfectly aware of where i stand, in this BIG BADD WORLD.

No, i am not breaking down,nor has my morale dipped one bit.I am happy coz of the fact that, from now on no castles will be built in air and if at all, there are some remainig, then i will try and put the foundations beneath them.So, i am not disappointed one bit, the main reason being the fact that, i somehow expected the low after the high.And as the burden of 'expectations from myself' has got off my shoulders.I still remember,how rosy it all turned out to be,when the chips were down during my 12th days,when i was 90% sure that the only place i will get admission in, will be Khalsa College DU.......lolzzzzzz,(forget about IP) In the end,what it turned out was,a more than 'just good' %age in 12th and good ranks in almost all the entrance exams i appeared in.Now,this is what gives me the inspiration and this is where i see light at the end of the tunnel......................... =======(

P.S.-Hope the feelings stated above dont fizzle out when i wake up tomorrow.............. :p

The grind starts again...

2006-02-06T20:57:00.000+05:30

Yeah, the grind of the exams has started again. The 1st sessional are staring me in my face (n i m writing this shit on the blog) n are goin to start from 13th feb and i am again going to be tested for my cramming up skills.

It seems just like yesterday when the 5h sem ended. There was no pressure of studies,even if it was there, i discarded it :P Past one month was full of some of the most memorable moments in my life,not necessrily for the right reasons..

So, here i am staring at another sessional with just one week to go and ZERO preperation (quite literally).At the moment of writing this post i dint kno what the syllabus for the exams is and i am not even sure whether i have got all the material to cover the complete syllabus. As usual, this time too i will have some xeroxed note,not even worth giving a look at, as good as crap and me at their total mercy. Once again i will be cursing the teachers for advising us to buy the wrong books.The business of the photocopier is sure to be increased atleast 10 times, with whole of the class , should i say the whole college, trying to get as many things xeroed as possible, just for the heck of it and no other reason(trust me on that count!!). No one even knows what they are getting xeroxed and the common phrase that you get to hear in the clg is that "yar jo tu xerox karwa raha hai,wo mere liye bhi karwa diyo" or "yar ek copy aur karwa diyo mere liye".

Finally, wen on the day before the exam, when i will hopefully be having a whole pile of crap at my desk, the studies will start. Not sure of what to study or what not to study,the cellphones will work overtime during the exam time with all those late night calls to the pals. Just listening to someone, whom you are sure wouldnt have studied more you, is certainly a very pleasent experience :P (no harsh/bad feelings for anyone..).

So, i will somehow try and live this whole week of immense tension,deep depression,some moments where i will just feel like breaking down and five unforgettable one n a half hours.......

P.S.-This time the sword of the 5th sem result is also hanging on my head,with it being expected anyday from now(n i am not expecting any miracles to happen this time,as it happened in the 3rd sem)

5th feb

2006-02-05T21:09:00.000+05:30

It is sunday,n i m in no mood to study 2day(if at all i am in a mood to study neother day).It was a pretty eventful week which went by....... i gave my first test at IMS n hey!!! i gt 34 marks..... some batchmates say that it is the highest marks they have ever heard for a PT(preliminary test), n if v go by what Manish sir say then i wud hv got 94 %ile in the CAT (it was a mock CAT ppr, based on previous yr pprs)...... Yeah, i am a bit over the moon with this one(dont kno if i m jus talking a bit 2 much abt dis exam) n i am njoing the high...........

There ws this cultural fest of our college called Anugoonj from 1st to 4th feb.The whole gang (mostly all) went 2 d fest on friday(3rd feb).There ws a jam session till 5 in d evening(i dont kno wen it started, n v reached there only by 4) n v all danced a bit,v cud hv done much better if only the DJ ws nt a sucker he ws!! Neways, after that there ws dis fashion show/parade or watever u like 2 call it, wid some kool chix participating n some strange guys giving them company(they wer also participating by the way 2 gt the Mr. Anugoonj title). So, this ws the place v had most of the fun, wid the environment totally setup for some good loud hooting.There was dis guy called Pawan(a self said hindi lover), he gave his intro in hindi n ws face 2 face wid some loud booing frm our gang.............Then later came a guy called Rakesh, no1 knew him, bt somehow the name struck us, n he ws in for some loud cheers frm our gang.I really cant describe the way v all hooted him.............

All in all, v all had a awesome time out there( i really cant think of ne word which wud b better than awesome 2 describe that time).

I also watched the movie Rang De Basanti, n its an awesome movie mannn.Go catch it if u havent as yet(i am surely goin 2 watch it another time guys)

I wud hv loved 2 write more abt the day at the ip fest, bt i cant, becase my mum is really getting angry wid me for sitting on the comp for non-stop for the past few hours.

P.S.- it ws only coz of our gang that the rst of the crowd had such a gud time, coz v wer the only one's out there having som gud fun n entertaining others too.........

OMG! I have my place on the web now!

2006-02-05T21:08:00.000+05:30

Well, this is the only place on the web, i can call it mine, only mine. Won't share it with anybody else.
Will keep ya updated with new posts here.

Bye

Introduction

2006-02-05T21:06:00.000+05:30

Hello every1

this is pushpreet here.I am currently doin my engineering n...................... i guess that will b it about my introduction (hope evry1 undertands wat i mean :D ).

until nxt time..
bbye