Scribbles of a Lazy Geek

I m leavin again guys............. See u soon!!!! Adios!

NOTE : I hv written dis piece jus for myself… it hsnt been written coz I want ppl to read dis… I hv written dis coz if ever d time comes wen I m on loose ground… I wud read dis piece n live each n every moment of it again… n say to myself dat, I hv faced tougher times… I hv tried to be as elaborate as possible… n yes everything I have written is d truth. I haven’t written anything here to hurt anyone… bt if I magage to… plz excuse me… dis is certainly nt my intention. If u r reading dis fr some fun, then go no further… Also, i havent edited dis thing, i may also hv skipped quite a few things..... which certainly isnt intentional, jus dat it ws a vry tiring experience writing dis whole thing... hd to go thru all the experiences once again... so please excuse!!! N yes it is only my side of the story..... the version of others may differ.... So the sixth semester begins…….. the usual way, no studies in the beginning… holidays, fests n wat not except classes. My fifth semeste

Now, ws d time fr d next one to come… evry one waited… it ws to be Sapient on 9 th april… TPO told us dat dis ws d golden goose…… it paid well, it hd a gud company profile, n moreover it was also in NCR. So , everyone prepared hard for dis one. First ws d written test, n boy wat a test it was….. it was cheating galore… every1 cheated, moreover evry1 knew of d question beforehand, coz they wer available all over d net. I cheated too…. I guess dat ws 1 st time after my 9 th class dat I had cheated…. The guilt of cheating started to creep in as time passed after d written test ws ovr… it sounds stupid in todays age, bt dats hw I am. I wished dat I dnt gt thru d written. The results of d written test were announced on 20 th april, n d ppl at sapient wer annoyed wid d results of d written…. they hd made out dat evry1 cheated.. they even took a few examples to show d amount of cheatin dat had been done in d test… the examples they took wer ME n ROHIT… it hurt me, seriously it hurt. Whe

Slowly , the disappointment died down, n life came back to normal… clg began again, n dis time I made myself busy wid d practical files n stuff as the final practicals wer nearing. The next one ws to be Syntel.. in Greater Noida. We hd to reach there early as we wer told dat d reporting time ws at 8 in d morning. We pooled in went in cars, we left at 6 in d morning n reached there half an hour before time. This tme around d ppl frm our clg wer a little less , to be exact they wer 51 less… We found out dat d name of our college wasn’t there in d list of invited colleges.. we wer told to wait outside. This day ws goin to b a long day!! We wer at a place where there ws hard to find even a gud place to eat. Around 11 am we wer aloud to enter d college, bt ther wer no signs still of our test to be taken.. it ws hot like anything that day. Now began what ws to b a hot n tiring day…. oops, not tiring!!! D truth is dat, it was one hell of a day, wid all the chatting n stuff we did dat day… it

Now, the summer holidays had begun…. these weren’t exactly holidays for me… but fr d ones who had been placed, these wer to be d best holidays of there 4 rs… atleast this ws wat I thot. At IMS almost everybody around me hd been placed, n they wer all told to concentrate solely on CAT preparations. I ju said to myself dat, once dis placement stuff gets over, I wud then think about CAT. Slowly, d depression of accenture faded away. All around I cud see stuff, which I never thot I wud see. I don’t kno if it was jus my imagination… bt somhing hd changed, a lot had changed. Ppl had changed, ofcourse it doesn’t goes fr all of the ppl who h been placed. It all taught me a lesson… hw to behave when som ppl around u r nt goin thru d best of times… n how not to!!! I sincerely hope, it was all my imagination… n now I think it really ws my imagination, I HOPE I AM RIGHT. Then there wer som over generous ppl, jus trying to show dat they care… the inferiority complex ws starting to creep in now, it

The wait for the next company ws growing….. everyday mom used to ask “AGLI COMPANY KAB AA RAHI HAI”… finally infosys ws fixed… it ws to visit MAIT on 14 th july…. Dis time I knew dat dis ws my last chance n dat too d best one!!! Many had told me dat its only d written of infosys dat matters… rest, d HR interview is a mere formality… they select almost all of d ppl who clear the written exam… they jus need aptitude, rest they know dat they can teach us how to work. Moreover, I also used to think dat technical interview n GD ws my weak point n I cud clear d HR interview easily. Even dad one day said to me “BETA INFOSYS KI TAYAARI ACHHI TARHA SE KARLO, AGAR ISME HO JAYE TO IS SE BETTER AUR KUCH NAHI”… d pressure on me ws only increasing. So, keeping all dis in mind, I started preparing fr d INFOSYS written…. I wont say dat I prepared extremely hard fr dis ppr, bt still more than wat I had prepared for any else… I did some questions from shakuntla devi’s buk… meanwhile we wer informed dat

Soon, I gt d news dat Tech Mahindra wud b visiting MAIT on 26 th july.. so I rushed back frm there to home on 24 th , so dat I cud prepare a bit fr d ppr… . On the morning of 26 th I left home wearing those clothes, which I ws now beginning to hate like anything… while goin there, it suddenly started raingin heavily… on d way to clg I ws almost drenched in water… my clothes wer all wet, I ws feeling like hd I been selected dat day in infy , I may nt hv had to see all this… I jus couldn’t manage to get d failure at infosys get out of my head… d date 14 th july had somehow managed to leave a huge impact on me… n also those 4 days, 14 th 15 th 16 th n 17th wer all that wer needed to destroy me completely… it came like a tsunami … n left wid only destruction behind it. Tech Mahindra…. Ws one of the last of d gud companies which visits our clg.. I knew it .. so d pressure it generated on me ws also enormous… they conducted there written, exam… I managed to clear it… I ws making a habi

College opened on d 1 st of august…. I reached clg on time… wid a draft of 50,000 in my hand… I still had nt paid d fees… it ws looking even more of a burden to me. I reached clg wid a smile on my face… never mind a fake one… tried cracking a joke or two… n even went to watch a movie d very first day… all dat ws a farce jus to show dat all ws well… where it certainly wasn’t.. Whenever I saw, d smiles on d faces of others.. the only thing dat came to my mind ws dat….. hd I also been placed, things might hv been different wid me…. I kno dis certainly wasn’t d way I shud hv thot, butt I jus couldn’t help it…… I ws nt in d best of shapes mentally… I had started to tinker wid my nature, I hd started to look at myself differently…. Things had gone horribly wrong in d past month…. I don’t reject d point dat I may nt hv been dat deserving…bt still………..!!!!! the pain ws more so coz of d efforts , our parents put in…. I cud hv taken all dis in my stride n moved ahead un moved, bt I jus couldn’